31 December, 2009

Bone Stealing

Lalalalalalala~ Just as expected, my hands got itchy and I’m now back to my lappy. XD Oh did I mention I’ve decided to call it Lappie? Or Lappy. I haven’t decided on which spelling yet though. I know it’s kinda…. Lame. Hee. But cant blame me, Dee Dee has terrible naming sense, unlike her wife.
I’ve hung out all the clothes in the washing machine, cleared away the dirty dishes, ate lunch, mopped the floor… Now, my room. CLEANING. D:

Oh about the lunch tomorrow, I might be able to make it after all! And the baby can stay at home. The only condition is, I must get ready my stuff by today. Of course I can leave minors for tomorrow but procrastination is NOT GOOD. *crosses fingers* So I’m gonna try my best getting things into their places by today.

Ahhhhhh, back to cleaning lah yorrrrr. (>_>)

First Spree and Dilemma

I’m not online yet.
I know this sounds wrong but as a matter of fact, I AM not online yet. I’m only typing out this in Word and I plan to put this up on my bloggy when I get back online. And guess how did I type in Word now? YESH, I’VE GOT MAH LAPPY. =D

Okay that’s just lame. XP

Anyway, TADAAAA. I’ve finally got my laptop and due to personal reasons, I cant tell why did I get it earlier by a week. In short, I got cash earlier and so I get my lappy earlier. Although it isn’t what we (we as in my parents and I) planned to get earlier, I’m quite okay with it. Got the latest model for HP Compaq, and it’s pretty cheap! RM 1945, excluding an addition of RM240 which gives me additional 5 years of warranty. Windows 7, Intel Pentium inside… I’m not quite sure about the details. You know, the technologically challenged sotong. (>_<)
I’m in a dilemma now. I wanna meet up with weiyun, liyun and the others but it turns out that this Friday is NEW YEAR’S DAY. So my baby’s gonna be at home. And what does that mean? YESH, I’M GONNA BABYSIT HIM. I know mum doesn’t like me going out when the baby’s at home. Talked about it with dad and he suggested that I bring him along. And now I’m worried that I’m not capable of that, and secondly, mum doesn’t allow. OTL.
The baby’s not the only reason. I’ll be leaving for Ipoh on Saturday, and my room’s not totally clean yet. (I’ve just moved remember?) I can settle the cleaning tomorrow, and packing too. I even have my Friday (half of it if I’m going out that is) too, for packing. Last minute packing is bad, according to mum’s no-last-minute-preps-please rule. So yeah, will try my best tomorrow. AZAZA FIGHTING DEE! =D

Went out with sooyin and chienling today. I haven’t met chienling for years I think. She left penghwa to China when we were in Form 3 – her dad works there. She’s still that happy-go-lucky girl from what I see today and all the happy chats today remind me of those cheery chatty UPDK duty hours too. Hahahaha. I didn’t know the friend sooyin brought along was her till I heard sooyin calling her on the phone.

We planned to get to the movies in the first place. Wanted to watch ‘The Princess and the Frog’ and ‘Avatar’. But but but but, when we saw the queue, sooyin’s mood died down. Hahaha, she doesn’t like to queue. Queuing up for me is nothing as I blank out into space too easily. XDDD But really, cant blame her for that you know. THE QUEUE STRETCHED RIGHT TO THE PURIKURAS MY GOODNESS. D:

Instead we went into shops and raided for clothes. I was searching high and low for my formal wears and a pair of something, slippers or sandals, to wear when I go out casually. As expected, I found nothing for my feet. As for clothes, actually I spotted a baby blue top, 3-quarter sleeves, and according to my comrades (XD), they said I look pretty good in it. But in the end I let go of it, coz I didn’t feel like I like it that much or something.

Results for the day, I finally had a taste of Dave Deli’s (OMG I don’t remember the name. =.=) !!! And I bought two pairs of earings which I mah-mah-dei-ly like it. I don’t know lah. I just felt like having it. Never would I spend like that so I cant explain why did I buy them. And of course, I got myself novels again. What do you expect from wanting me to walk in and out of bookstores? =D

Okay I’m feeling a little bit of tired now. Maybe I should get to the bed now. And read for a couple of minutes before I enter slumberland.

A random fact of DeeDee, I read before I sleep. =)

24 December, 2009

On Hiatus.. Again.

Had to come back to Sungai Ara's cyber cafe. Orz.

Moved to our new place but unfortunately, there goes my online hours. We havent transfered the phone line yet so yeah, no internet. OTL. Called up the telekom people and they said things will be done within 10 days. Which means, after I leave penang, back in ipoh. MY GOODNESS. Hopefully my lappy will really come in January, but even if it comes earlier, nothing much of a difference as I still cant get online at home. Mostly transferring stuff  only. Wait, still better than nothing right? *headdesk*

So yeah... Blog will be on hiatus till I get my online hours back. Till then..

14 December, 2009

Photographing My Storyboard

Just remembered... Tonight, is the last night I'll be sleeping in this house.. I dont feel like leaving this place at all in the beginning. It's working that distracted my attention, so I ended up feeling kinda okay about moving.. This house contains tonnes and tonnes of memories. Memories with my grandma. It felt like only a moment ago, I was still talking to her, listening to her stories, discussing movies with her... Now I'm leaving everything behind in this house...?

No, I dont think so. I'm just leaving behind the things I can see in the house. Like this corner reminds me of what happened there. Then when I walked to another room, I remember what she used to do there. Stuff like this.. I know my memories of her will fade a little bit sooner or later. I cant say I have poor memories, coz I remember lots of random insignificant stuff, but I cant say that I have a good memory either. Anyway, I tend to forget things I treasure sometimes. That is one of the reasons why I love to take photos with my beloved ones. I may take stupid silly ugly photos, and some of my friends might hate me doing that, especially when I take photos of them which they think is ugly. They just dont understand how much it meas to me.. They have no idea, that I can actually remember almost everything that happened at that exact moment when a certain photo was taken. The photos are like storyboards. Storyboards between you and me. I remember my precious memories this way too.. But I know.. Not everyone likes it whenever I bring out my camera. You guys might just see me as an over-noisy girl who likes to do random and silly stuff... I'm beginning to he hesitant in requesting to take photos with them alrdy.. I'll get rejected most of the times anyway.. Glad that SOBA people loves to camwhore together.. I miss our meetings...

I miss my grandma. It's just so sad that I couldnt take enough photos with her. I didnt have my camera yet then...

Sometimes.. I just cant help thinking, that one day, all my friends will not reject me when I request for photos. I just want to remember all the moments we shared.. That's all...


Day Three was even easier than the two days before. =) Today got the chance to talk to Vegetta more too. His brother is interested in applying to get into the teaching college too. Shared with him about the things I knew. He almost shouted when he heard that teachers in Sarawak and Sabah are highly paid. Hahahahaha. And confirmed, he went to Cadenza once. Nothing significant about this anyway. XP

TODAY.......... IS........ MY FIRST DAY........ AS..... SANTA !!!!!

My first day as Santa was AWESOME. I cant believe it !!! I had so much fun dancing and walking around and shaking hands with those little children at Gurney's groundfloor. I WAS SO HAPPY. IT WAS SO FUN. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I love it !!! And it wasnt even as hot as I expected! I YEARN FOR MORE.

I'm so excited and I cant wait for my next turn. =D

13 December, 2009

Day Two

The schedule's exactly the same every single day. Only that we have an additional round at 6pm for weekends. Normally we have only 2 rounds for weekdays. Hence there's nothing much to elaborate about..

Today I had the chance to chat with them again. I finally knew the emcee's name is Edwin. Hahahaha. And guess what, he's TWENTY-EIGHT. WALEHHHHH. And we think that he's most prolly in his early twenties nia. My goodness. Another thing, he's rich. Real rich. We know he can really spend now. *shakes head*

I got to talk to Helen for a little while too. Although it was only a short 10min talk, I pretty much enjoyed it. =)

After work, went for 伯伯's birthday dinner at a restaurant. Time flies eh, his another birthday again.. I had a taste of red wine again tonight, and.... I still dont like it. XP 伯母 and 伯伯 got a llittle bit 'high', hahahahaha. And they SANG. =D No karaoke, just normal singing at the table. She sings whenever sh'e's happy. =) You know what, when I saw the both of them singing, I kinda envy them. I dont know how to describe how I felt, but that scene is still in my head for sure. It's just that, it's so nice to still be with someone you love even after so many years.. And the best part is, they're so sweet. Hahahahaha.

Baby woke up and vomitted. Mum and dad woke up, saw me online. Tomorrow will definitely be another day filled with nags... *sigh*

12 December, 2009

My Official First Day at Work


Hahahaha, got to Gurney at 11.30am and had lunch at McD. After that went straight to the backstage to help out. Helen (my Buu), Bryan (Goku) and Piccolo were already there. They're real friendly people. It's just me that is still shy to talk. I wanted to joke around with these people as I know they're really nice..

Putting on Buu's costume isnt that hard anymore. That's what they call practice makes perfect I guess. Hahaha. It took us only 10min! (^-^)b Helen was pretty nervous during the first round. She said she made mistakes but it doesnt really matter as no one will really notice that. Everyone else was jumpy too. When the first round ended, they came in demanding for their costumes to be taken off immediately. Hahaha. (I'm so mean to laugh here. >.<) Nevertheless, second round turned to be a lot more better. Not that tense any more. =)

Today's the first time I've chatted a little bit with a few of them. Lfeel a little bit closer to them. I mean, like closer to be friends? *out of words* Vegetta was actually from Heng Ee eh! And he's only two years older than us. Whatsmore, yukee just told me that he went to Cadenza quite a while ago. Jeryl knows him too, saw him in a trailer or something. Helen's a nice girl with a good sense of humour. She's cute too. I like to see her bounce around in her Buu outfit! Hahahaha, reminds me of how did I enjoy myself being the 包租婆 and pregnant lady. We both enjoyed taking characters that are totally different from the usual us. =) Bryan seems to be Helen's bf. =D Dont really know him.. Oh there's this cute guy as Piccolo and he likes to immitate girls' voices randomly. Hahahaha. He even took a set of the colouring stuff today and coloured happily like a kid you know? I even thought he looked like a lizard in a way. :P I like him, he's funny and cute! Hahahaha.

I FOUND MY ROOM A NEW CARPET TODAY. =D I'm still surprised that I actually chose something different than what I normally like. XP After placing the carpet nicely, I've finally arranged my study table and boxes in. My closet and bed will be there tomorrow.

Overall today was enjoyable. I'm waiting for tomorrow.. =)

11 December, 2009

Final Rehearsals

Just reached home approximately two hours ago. I feel like vomitting now.. (@_@)

Didnt get to tackle my favourite ice lemon tea today at Old Town's. TT^TT Coz I went to try out my costume at DPiazza Mall and ended up following Jo's car to New World Park. Josephine is Jeryl's dad work partner I think. I only had late breakfast of nasi lemak at home, around 10am and that was all till I got home at 4pm. And I only had bread and cheese and vanilla ice cream (XD) before I took my one-hour nap. >_<

Gurney's rehearsal was overall okay.. I was pretty nervous half of the time. This is my first time working as a part-time coordinator and it's not easy at all. I was in charge of dressing up Boo (a villain in Dragonball Z) with my partner. Jeryl, Jonathan and Syameer are in charge of Piccolo, Vengetta and Goku respectively. I'm glad Boo's a girl. Wait, to be exact, I meant, the person inside the Boo costume is a girl. XD

Pretty eventful, the rehearsal I mean. There were quite a number of soundcheck problems. Coordinators made a few mistakes too. >_< Like loose costumes and wrong timing and stuff. I dont think I should call that lecture, but I was kinda frightened actually. Especially when things happened and I was thought to be the one who did it. I was so nervous and I'm really afraid that I'd screw things up you know... *literally shivering*


10 December, 2009

Rehearsal Day 1

Reached New World Park around 11 something and headed for OLd Town instead of Starbucks. I'm trying to save up my $$$. XD But Old Town's not that much of a difference anyway, only a few bucks cheaper. XP

I was reading "If You Could See Me Now', one of wei's books =), and got myself an ice blended white milk tea. Pretty diluted, a little bit of disappointed. *sigh*

Costumes' arrival were delayed or something. We thought it was due to custom's problems but apparently it wasnt. I heard them  mentioning something about warehouses. Not sure. Anway since there werent much we could do, there'll be another rehearsal session at the same time, same place. Mum suggested me to have lunch at Old Town again. I missed the food there, but I dont feel like spending too much.. Dilemma. I'll try to get some food at home first and perhaps get a lemon tea there. =3

Tomorrow might be a pretty busy day as after rehearsal at 1pm, there'll be another final rehearsal at 10pm. This time at gurney. It'll be pretty late since Gurney's almost closed by that time.

I guess I'll finally start tomorrow? Wish me good luck. =)

09 December, 2009




07 December, 2009

Falling Sick

My farm's growing pretty fast, and so is the time I spent on harvesting and planting all those crops and trees. Orz. I do think it's a waste of time sometimes.

Went to sooyin's place today for dinner. Her brother's getitng married. =) When I saw her today, I suddenly realied, that I really missed her a lot... Havent seen her for weeks alrdy. I promised to go 'wet' with her for a day during the holidays, to help cure her 'constipation'. Hahahahaha! Wonder when'll it be? Definitely after we've moved I'm pretty sure.

Ohya, I might not be taking that part-time job after all. Yukee's poxes are fading pretty quick hence we assume he'll recover in time for that job, and also of course, for the pay. XD He wants that job badly to save up for his Hong Kong trip with PESSBAND next year.

I think I'm falling sick again. Dont feel quite well. Been sneezing here and there. Now this runny nose. Driving me crazy. Ugh. I've thought of the dust, coz I'm allergic to dust. And also because I'm not used to air-conditioned rooms anymore.. Or maybe it's because I dont have enough rest..


05 December, 2009




FB and Lappy

Yukee finds it hilarious to see me busy checking and filtering my mails, and also replying stuff on FB at the same time. He bet I was chatting with a guy when he saw me abusing my keyboard. So darn not true. =.= Anyway I was really racing with the speed my friends replied on FB. I kept receiving notifications from FB and the minute I finished loading a page, two mails came in. I almost SCREAMED. IE went hang for at least four times and I've already restarted the computer twice. XP Surprisingly ah chia and sheng chao replied real fast today. I chatted more with ah chia though, hahaha. So many posts on his wall today, he must have forgotten to take his medication I was thinking. :P Anyway, it makes me laugh when I thought of both chia and I talking on blogger, FB comments and messages at the same time. Things wouldnt be that hectic if I could get on MSN. *sigh* Funny though. But but but but, I'm worried whether she'll find it annoying or not.. Not everyone can stand ppl blah'ing so much on FB. I'm not using the word spamming coz I dont think I was.

Went to PC fair with dad today. Research for my future lappy !!! =D My gurranto said she can help me out by helping me get one using her credit card. Interest-free installments. But I'd have to wait till after school reopens in January. I dont mind waiting, so nothing much to worry about. I"m grateful enough. =) So we walked and walked and walked. Cant believe I met wen chien, evon, milline and also gerad! I felt so paiseh when it was ah sir who called me instead, I couldnt recognise him. >.<

Dad and I were spotting for a new HP with 500GB hard drive !!! =D Dell was another option too, bur I have a feeling that I'll be getting this one in January. Windows 7 looks kinda nice. =) That means I'll have to spend hours (or even days) to figure out everything. I'm a technologically challenged sotong remember? TT^TT

Wonder if I can really get my lappy.. I'm alrdy thinking of what should I name it.. Hee.

04 December, 2009


I'm crazy, hahaha. Been facebooking for the past two hours and I should really get off to get the chores done right now. XP

I'm glad I get to talk to Kits. =)

Aud's Revenge

My wall....is literally spammed. Aud's revenge. *faints*


I think I'm insane. Been on spamming mode for the past few hours that I feel like long biak'ing now. OTL. I'm gonna get pekchek soon. This screen is driving me crazy. FB'ing cant last that long ya know.


03 December, 2009

Crazy Enough..?

You know.. I've never thought that I'd stay online without signing into MSN. *counts* It's been at least TWO WEEKS. XD Of course I do sign in sometimes, but compared to the time before my pc screen got so blur, I'm spending so few hours on msn now. XP

I went to play that dev meme again last night, and this time I filled in my classmates names. Hahaha. But it wasnt exactly as fun as the ones I did with SOBA. Coz I'm not sure if my classmates can take the jokes I make sometimes. Before I went to Ipoh, life's been so crazy and hyper for me that I've never realise how crazy was I. I'm pretty talkative in Ipoh but compared to high school, sheesh I'm pretty quiet dy leh. Come to think of it, I get high so easily and with SOBA we do so many crazy funny fun stuff. =) Yeah I'm having fun as well with my classmates, but I hold back a little bit. Somehow I'm still afraid that they cant accept that kind of me or something. I dont remember who was it, but I cant seem to forget a voice telling me, YOU'RE A FUTURE TEACHER. MUST STOP FOOLING AROUND ALRDY. I held back even more eversince then...

Lemme see... For the moment, the craziest things I've ever done in Ipoh were to suddenly pull down a friend's trousers with my roommate, (she's from penang too so she doesnt really count as a new friend from Ipoh, plus she's also one super crazy person), singing like a crazy woman at a karaoke with ah chia, playing the 包租婆 in our class drama... Errrr, sheesh I cant think of anything more now. *sigh*

Aiyo I dont know lah.. Sometimes I do feel like letting myself be so crazy, but you know la.. I dont think I have the guts to do that.. Might frighten off ppl, yes/no?

02 December, 2009

Junk Treasures

It must be because of my aunt's visit that makes me act this way again. XP I dont know but I feel...lost? Or sien maybe..

This holiday isnt much of a holiday for me I guess. Having the whole house messy as we've been busy clearing away unwwanted stuff.. Never did I think that I would find myself a part-time job this break. Coz I dont feel like it. I know it'll help out my parents a bit but I just dont feel like it. But that doesnt mean that I'm reluctant to it. So yeah I'm gonna try my best if I get it. =)

I was clearing my study table when I found so many little things. Little things, that bring back those precious memories.. I found keychains I used to collect with my mum when I was still in my primary years.. I found the birthday cards my primary schoolmates gave me... I found the pens and drawings I kept away a long time ago. Then, I sorted out my secondary life's stuff. I found ning's doodles. And luoyi do you know I still have a piece of your nilam and your math paper with me? XD The bicycle bookmark, the hand-drawn birthday wishes, the olympic stickers, the photos.. And finally, the memorial book. I was reading through every single page, when I noticed that it's alrdy been a year since we graduated...

There are so many things I have to discard. Yet after those throws, I still have so many stuff (mum calls them junk) which I insist to keep. =3 I just cant help keeping it. I'm one person with terrible memories. Who knows one day I'll bang my head somewhere and I'll lose all my memories about everything. XD I'm going to keep it. Both the so-called junk, and the precious pieces of memories...

I dont think I'll be able to study for this holiday. I'll be pretty busy. I dont even have my math books with me. What can I do? :P


Missing the Chats

Havent signed into blogger for days due to the uber blur screen which makes my eyes go haywire..

Suddenly I see so many updates at my friends' blogs. I feel kinda kiampak now.. Although I've finally got home and online, I didnt have a nice good long chat with some friends.. Kits has even transfered to a new blog. And I had to literally plucked up the courage to ask for her new add, like what she mentioned. I miss talking to her so much... I havent seen audrey's blog for like, weeks. I cant stay on msn that much anymore coz I cant see what are my friends saying unless I copy and paste every single word into ms word. I feel sad at the thought of it. I wanted to talk to them so badly. I got the chance to talk to fish a while ago, although I had to copy and paste like mad. And I hate it when I had to say goodbye so soon.. Stupid screen.

I've stopped working at the stall as they've got a new worker. So now I'm a free labour at home. XDDDD Busy packing up stuff too.. Oh on the other hand, I MIGHT have a part-time job from the 10th to 20th of dec. It's something like a dragonball convention I think. Yukee has finally gotten his chicken pox, so if his poxes dont go away in time, I'll be taking his place. XD I'm half looking forward to it, and half nervous about it. I'm one blur person and most of the time I make things worse. I'm not confident about getting this job although dad has been telling me repeatedly to enjoy it.. *sigh*

Going off to hang the clothes now..

26 November, 2009

Sigh Night

You have no idea how happy was I too see that almost every egg I fried this morning looked so fake! Hahahaha. Okay, not funny. Guess what, dad bumped into me when I was using the knife at the stall today. My goodness, luckily the cut wasnt deep, and Luckily I wasnt using a cleaver or anything similar. Phew..

Second accident, I fell right on my back in the bathroom thie evening. Seriuosly after that great BANG, I went blank for quite a few seconds before I realised that I almost twisted my foot and sprained my back. I've hurt my back before when I was learning how to ride the bike. The pain comes back once in a while. The second blow was when my classmate aimed a basketball at my back. It wasnt hard, but it hit right at the spot. Since then it got a little bit worse.. Now this fall... I dunno.

After facing everything that's going on at home, obviously the best way for me to let out is for me to get online. It's been quite a while since I last got this active on FB. I couldnt MSN neither can I skype. The computer screen's getting blurrer and blurrer and now I cant read my friends' pm's and skype messages. OTL. FB arent that effective as the line goes on and off. I can leave messages and comments as I magnified the whole window. Why cant I just magnify MSN and skype eh? Orz.

Surprisingly quite a number of friends left comments at the post where I mentioned my fall. Thanks really. =) Tonight, I sent a mass message to my classmates on FB. Only two replied though. Wonder how the others are doing now.. I think I'm so used to seeing them every day back then, so now I'm missing them.

I can finally meet up with liyun and jojo this friday evening. Mum says I can sleepover at liyun's place. Hope nothing comes in the way this time..

It seems like its been ages since I last met ning and wei. Skype wasnt enough to be honest. In ipoh I couldnt get online so I couldnt say anything much. But now.. I CAN get online, yet I'm not satisfied. Especially with this bloody blurry screen. Damnit.

Dad just got home.. I know he comes home late on wednesday nights, but this is the very first time I see him coming home this late, with the kind of expression on his face, which makes me want to cry... How long will this last... I dunno.

25 November, 2009


薛凯琪&方大同 - 复刻回忆

你还好吗 好久不见
又来这里 这个老店
后来的你 喜欢了谁
我们 聊聊天
现在的你 一样美丽
至於爱情 是个回忆
她不爱我 他离开你
爱会来 就会去

这样的我 那样的你


窗外的树 爱哭的风
烦恼的我 聪明的你
爱是什麽 什麽人懂
所以 别难过
心还痛吗 请忘了吧
所谓幸福 是个童话
后来的我 一切随意
所以 没关系

这样的我 那样的你


那年的梦 他乡的你

I like the way their voices combine. =)

24 November, 2009

Fake Eggs? XD

Just got home from work. One question, is it normal for our eyes to feel itchy after getting smoked by oil fumes? *sorry bout the grammar mistakes* XP

Head's a little bit heavy... Not quite sure whether it's drowsy or not. Dont feel well, need lots of plain water I think. Eggs frying was pretty good today. ;) They look so nice that they look so fake, like those toy eggs you see at the supermarkets' kids' department. XD

So random.

At Least..

Finally the messages are getting through. I talked to Jojo for a while.. I still prefer to meet up with her and talk. Trying to identify all these damn blurry alphabets on this blurry screen is gonna make me go blind soon enough man.

I receive many surprises tonight. Okay maybe not that many, but it's definitely more than one, and normally two surprises in a row are enough of suprises. Oh great me and my blah again. XP

A classmate surprised me. I felt kinda...touched actually. Hee. She actually asked what happened to me when she saw my pm. You might think that I'm exaggerating but really, I felt a little warm and teary when I saw her msg. She's not that super duper close to me, although we are good friends. So her concern surprised me. My msn's always quiet so yeah... Thanks. =3

.....Finally I'm yawning. I'm heading off to bed early tonight. Will have to get up earlier for work tomorrow.. Night.

23 November, 2009

I wanna Skype

Although we just talked on skype yesterday, I miss you all so much more than ever now... I feel so sien now, with so many things in my clogged head. I tried so hard to think of positive stuff that might make myself feel better but no, I phailed.

Wanted to talk to jojo properly but stupid skype or rather my idiotic poor connection's in the way. I couldnt attend today's lunch. Fine. Liyun proposed a sleepover at her place this friday night. And again, I cant confirm. So many things are going on at home now and I'm not even sure whether I can get out to meet up with anyone... I'm tired at the thought of this...


Went to the stall today. Though I wasnt much of help. Like before, I'm in charge of frying the eggs. ....Cant think of anything more to talk about it...

I feel kind of...sien. I mean now, not this morning. I dont know why but I feel kinda lost again. I dont know what to do other than uploading photos on FB now. Totally dont feel like studying, and I still want my break. So no books for the moment. XD

I think I'm talking crap again.. Somebody tell me what to do..?


TADAIMA !!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

Oh how I missed blogging so much. Held back so much when I was in Ipoh. I promised myself to not touch my blog until now, when I get back to Penang. Reached home on friday night and was bloody exhausted. Had a newsletters-reading marathon for two nights. XD And I'm glad I finally replied SOBA. =3

A month without updates. I've even started writing a chinese diary since I couldnt blog here. Wonder if I'm gonna continue writing it. XP A month without blogging. I find it a little different, I mean, the way I use english. Must be due to the lack of using the languate in Ipoh. Eversince I got there, I havent really spoke in english. I think I need proper english convos.. *sigh*

....My mind is blank now. Exhausted I guess. I've been going to bed at 5am for the past two nights and I'm still sick, the usual flu, nothing much.

Just to say, I'm back. =)

18 October, 2009

First-time Hesitation

It's a gloomy morning. I feel like a zombie, wandering every single corner in the house, thinking of what to do. Didnt have the mood to have snacks, neither the mood to fool around online. Tried to teach my baby his chinese spelling and also his math, but he cried, again. I didnt know what to do and gave up...

I signed into msn, and looked at my friends' msn pm's one by one. After reading thru all the 129 messages, I sat quietly in front of this rectangular box and stared into space. Eversince I started using msn, I notice, that I seldom approach my friends online. Only some close ones, like SOBA and D.Gay-people. Others... If I ever nudge or call them, it should be for reasons like 'how are you' and 'are you okay' if I sense anything unhappy from their messages. Other than these, no, I stay quiet online. I dont know, but it's like, I can stay online for ages and nobody actually notices or something. Most of you think I'm super active online, I can fight online, I can blab online, and go high over random stuff. But still, I think I can be pretty quiet too. It's not that everytime I sign into msn, I go crazy and have fun all day. Sometimes its more like lepak. Many told me WAH ONLINE YOU SO ACTIVE AH. SURE BANYAK ORANG CARI YOU KENG GAI. I can be, but not always. Jeez, I find myself pathetic in a way...

I'm going back to Ipoh tomorrow. This time, I'm not sure whether I'm happy or not. A little part of me is looking forward to the study weeks, where I should put every single bit of me into it. I want, and hope, that I can put my head into it and stop getting distracted by things around me. I'm gliding off course. Meanwhile, another small part is like, more of hesitation to go back...? I dont know, I'm confused so I'm not really sure what I'm saying here.

Obviously there's only three reasons (or you can say problems SOMETIMES) which can possibly be behind all these. Firstly, my studies. That's definitely one factor but I'm going to face no matter how hard it takes. For my family. Secondly relationships. As I've mentioned, no I have no bf's and no, eversince my crush ended I have no tinglish feelings towards anyone. Even if I do, I think it's just something a little bit more than frienship, perhaps friends that I can share my problems with. That's all. I refuse to think of anything more than that. I hate to say this but I think it's a super potential distraction. Lastly frienship. I still feel insecure you know... I know its normal, I've only knew them for like 3 months. I really like them, they're great people. But I cant help feeling alone sometimes. Whenever I stopped and stood to see them walk pass me, I see friends in groups and pairs. I know I shouldnt sound so emo, but I cant help thinking that even if I decide to quit from this course or disappear mysteriously one day, no one would actually care... Even if they dont dislike me (or neither like me?), I still feel alone half of the time. Sheesh my roommate's so gonna kill me if she sees this. But hey, even if she DOES want to kill me, I dont mind. Hahaha. I'm grateful to have her as my roommate. She's always by my side when I faced problems.

SOBA I miss you really much... I need hugs...

The Reminder

Just came back from Kulim. My gurranto (however it spells) held a house warming party. The trip might be tiring, but she helped us a lot so it could be considered a must. =) Jasmine's four already, and today's the first time I played with her. She used to run and hide behind her dad whenever she sees me. She played and squealed so excitedly, and she even let me hug her when I bid her goodbye...

Mum cried when we wanted to leave. It seems like every time I come home, it's to remind me: There's a reason, and also a goal to reach, for me to study in Ipoh. I must not fool around anymore. My parents are waiting for me to graduate and deep inside my heart, I am very sure that they are hoping that I'll be able to help them out. They've never told me anything, for I know they dont want me to worry about them. But still... I'm the kind of person that put my family and friends ahead. Worrying over my family's problems is getting more and more frequent, despite the fact that I'm studying in Ipoh and not facing everything that's happening at home.

A few of my classmates and I were playing what you call 真心话大冒险 a few nights ago. Of course, topics on relationships were mentioned and two seniors joined us too. A senior even brought up sensitive topics like prejudice between people and stuff. Orz. I was asked about considering looking out for a bf there or not. My answer was a maybe. To be frank, I did considered looking for one. Has always looked forward to one eversince I had my first crush. XD But now... I'm hesitating. Not only now, I felt that way eversince after SPM. Many things have happened and my ways of looking at things have definitely changed. I now treasure my family and friends more than anything else in the world. Sometimes even more than my studies. Yes, even my studies. And that's why my parents are getting worried too. I think I'm neglecting my studies. I'm having too much fun in Ipoh. I'm not working hard enough. My results are going downhill. I'm going to die out of shame soon.

I hate things that make me feel insecure. I dont like things that make me go panicky. These things will distract me from my studies. Now, my studies can be equivalent to my family. It represents a great deal. So it can be said that I'm actually studying for my family now. I have to work hard. There's nothing more I can do to help them, which sometimes makes me feel so useless that I actually headdesked...

I think, it's time for me to settle down. And also, to put some things aside...

17 October, 2009

Haru Haru


Finally I realized
That I'm nothing without you
I was so wrong
Forgive me

Ah ah ah ah -

Padocheoreom buswojin nae mam
Baramcheoreom heundeullineun nae mam
Yeongicheoreom sarajin nae sarang
Munsincheoreom jiwojijiga anha
Hansumman ttangi kkeojira swijyo
Nae gaseumsogen meonjiman ssahijyo say goodbye

Nega eobsin dan harudo mot salgeotman gatatdeon na
Saenggakgwaneun dareugedo geureokjeoreok honja jal sara
Bogosipdago bulleobwado neon amu daedabeobtjanha
Heotdoen gidae georeobwado ijen soyongeobtjanha

Ne yeope inneun geu sarami mwonji hoksi neol ullijin annneunji
Geudae naega boigin haneunji beolsseo ssak da ijeonneunji
Geokjeongdwae dagagagijocha mareul geol su jocha eobseo aetaeugo
Na hollo gin bameul jisaeujyo subaekbeon jiwonaejyo

Dorabojimalgo tteonagara
Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae
Haru haru

Oh girl I cry cry
Your my all (say goodbye)

Gireul geotda neowa na uri majuchindahaedo
Mot boncheok hagoseo geudaero gadeongil gajwo
Jakkuman yet saenggagi tteooreumyeon amado
Nado mollae geudael chajagaljido molla

Neon neul geu saramgwa haengbokhage neon neul naega dareun mam an meokge
Neon neul jageun miryeondo an namgekkeum jal jinaejwo na borandeusi
Neon neul jeo haneulgachi hayake tteun gureumgwado gachi saeparake
Neon neul geureoke useojwo amu il eopdeusi

Dorabojimalgo tteonagara
Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae
Haru haru

Nareul tteonaseo mam pyeonhaejigil (nareul itgoseo saragajwo)
Geu nunmureun da mareulteni yeah (haruharu jinamyeon)

Charari mannaji anhatdeoramyeon deol apeultende um
Yeongwonhi hamkkehajadeon geu yaksok ijen
Chueoge mudeodugil barae baby neol wihae gidohae

Dorabojimalgo tteonagara
Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae
Haru haru

Oh girl
I cry cry
Your my all
Say goodbye bye
Oh my love
Don't lie lie
Yo my heart
Say goodbye

I can only say, I'm addicted to this song for now. XD

16 October, 2009

Bleh bleh..

First day of my deepavali holiday in Penang. And voila !!!! I woke up at 12pm !!! WOOHOO ~!!!! Okay this is so piggy. Hahahaha. It's been like weeks since I last slept till so late in the morning (actually noon) and waleh, it's blardy good !!! XD

The only thing is, I seem to have flu whenever I come back home. Not used to air-conditioned rooms. Fans in my hostel room is enough to make me shiver early in the morning already, not to mention ac rooms at home. *gulps* Last night I even slept with long sleeves, long pants and double blankets. Even so, I now have red swollen eyes and a runny nose. Good 'wantan' production too. XD

.........I dont really know what to do today. So I went to upload the merdeka trip's piccies. Dont plan to tag anyone at all. They'll find out eventually anyway. XD Time really flies man, it's been 3 months in Ipoh already. Assignments have slowed down and exam's just around the corner. It seems like we're going to have study leaves. Wont have to attend classes, so I can just rest in the room and study quietly. =)

Sien, stuck...


My presentation was.... I dunno. I know I shivered a great deal that's all. I think my voice was too. *hides* But still, it's finally over, and I wont have to worry about it anymore, I think. XD

It's deepavali's holidays. I have 4 days' break and here I am, home in Penang again. Actually it's no other than normal weekends, just that it has two extra days. Wonder if it makes a difference. This trip is homework-less, assignments-less, and less stress. XD I brought back my chinese history textbook, though I doubt I'll read it. XD

I'm lazy to continue writing tonight. See ya!

14 October, 2009


FINALLY !!!!!!!!! XD I've been working on the powerpoint for my 'Journey to the West's presentation for the past few hours and VOILA ~~~ HABIS DESU !!!

I'm supposed to present Chapter 33 at noon today. Another frightening thing to do. Most of you who know me will understand how much I shiver when it comes to presentation. I just dont really like to talk about something like homework in front of a crowd. It's.... frightening. OTL.

Luckily I can finish this and finally have a rest of at least an hour. Hahahaha. Well, I have to be grateful right? XD

Mum and dad, I'm only two days away from you now. Love you. =)




07 October, 2009

Mail Gone

WHAT THE HELL. I finally get to reply SOBA and I was typing so happily for so many paragraphs and then POOF. Hotmail went HANG and my mail werent even saved in the drafts! SHEET.

I dont know why but I find it hard to sign into hotmail here. Logging into blogger is so much easier and faster. Thats why I couldnt update you guys with emails. And thus you'll see more here. Was thinking since I cant mail, I'm trying my best to update things here. Just to let my dearies know how I'm doing. =3 Susan I know you ada visit here sometimes. =) Can you help me tell them that I cant really check my mails that regularly? Thanks. *glomps* ^^

Still Dumbfounded

I cant believe what I've just heard a few hours ago. A friend from another class told me, that he found my blog easily when he googled for his assignment research. I was kinda shocked. I think I blushed. To think that my bloggy is found by someone so easily. Not to mention when it was found for an assignment research. Orz. Must be the bequests of love thingey... I guess this explains the sudden increase in the number of visits recently.

And that wasnt it. When I told my roommate that, she said, I know ah. I found it too. OH MY GOD. That was then I realized something. Whoever googled for the short story could have found me so easily as my post is actually the THIRD link. *screams and faints*

Calmed down after a minute or two. I should have known this when I started blogging. Dont think it's a big deal anymore. If things are too private, I wouldnt have written about it here right? XD

I'm still shocked though... *holds back the intention to pull hair*

04 October, 2009



本来是要和主恩约出来见面的,但计划又泡汤了。这次回家特别劳累,也觉得很心烦。感觉上,我是不该回来的。看着手上的这份课业,心里总觉得闷闷的。FB 那里看见学姐说怡保没下雨,和学妹们过了个很开心的中秋夜晚,我竟羡慕起来了。我甚至还在想,若这夜我没回来,独自在宿舍房里看看书、听听歌也是挺不错的。我竟不想回家……


Dont ask me why, I dont know why am I blogging in chinese tonight either.

27 September, 2009

Habis Raya

And here goes my raya holidays. I literally spent the whole week babysitting, and sitting in front of the computer working on my english assignment. It's been pretty hectic, for me at least. I'm not that sure about the others, though some do give me the feeling that they're enjoying the whole week pretty much. Maybe it's different for my case, as my family's lifestyle is a lil bit different from the others.

I've seen and understood why mum gets so stressed up at home. Bro's getting pretty rebellious these days. Maybe he thinks that he has his own way of living now, and hence everything we say are nags. My baby's being very stubborn, and he cries a lot these days. Both of them quarrel every single day. Parents' sales arent that good, making life a little bit worrying. I should have got used to this so long ago, don't I?

Beng beng asked me, whether I'm stressed or not in Ipoh? Yes there is stress, from both assignments and friendships. (I'm still free from relationships so there. :P) But like I've said, no matter how hard life is here, I'm gonna move on. This is my choice and I will never turn back. I will make sure I wont regret after these five and a half years.

Think on the bright side, after all these stress, I have joyful classmates, kind seniors, a nice peaceful environment to study in, and I lose weight easily there. XDDD

I'm sure I'll be fine. =)

25 September, 2009










It seems like I have this every-morning song eh? XD I'm just posting this here so it's easier for me to find it the next time. =) *lazy to regoogle it*

24 September, 2009

Bleh. :P

When yukee came into the room with my breakfast, I dont know why I felt teary. It's been so long since he last prepared breakfast for me and I have to say, he sure is good in preparing western breakfast. =) As cliched as it can be, I'm proud of him and I love him. He's improved so much with his saxophone and I'm so proud that I can actually brag about him in front of my classmates. He can be a very nice person sometimes, although I do dislike some of his ways of doing things. Nevertheless, I'm glad to have him in my life. But never expect me to tell him this.

Never. XP

Rise and Shine! =)

温暖太阳为你迎接 ~~~~

Hahahaha. I'm in a pretty happy mood today. =) I dont know. Mum woke me up at 7.40am, wanted me accompany my baby I guess. Anyway waking up late doesnt me feel grumpy at all today. I switched on the computer, bro woke up. Wanted to check on his mails, meanwhile I played a few songs for him. Made him listen to them! Muahahaha. XD

Maybe, the cute tone of this song cheered up my little morning. I dont know, but I somehow like this song. I just find it cute. Yeah I can only think of the adjective cute for this song. XD I've been humming it for the past one hour. XDDD

Happy working DeeDee !!! =3

笑着和你说再见 ~~~ <3

To be Continued...

I spent half of my day analysing the bequests, and I've not finished it yet. Sleeping early tonight, and waking up early again tomorrow.

GO DEEDEE !!!!!!

23 September, 2009

Chosen - Bequests of Love

WHEE. I woke up at 7am today to start work on 'Bequests of Love'. Actually I was supposed to wake up at 6am, but ended up later by an hour coz... Yeah you know why. XD Apparently my baby has his chinese spelling today, so took me an hour to give him a last minute prep before sending him off to kindy. So started late again. And then I went to FB and checked mails and bla bla bla. Delayed again. No wonder parents wanna ban me from the internet sometimes. XD

About my previous emotional... Bleh. I thinked too much again and my head got all crammed up and all I could do was pouring stuff here again. Poor bloggy. I felt better that night alrdy. Calmed down eventually. No worries. =)

Back to today's work. We're asked to choose a short story from the three, 'The Inheritance', 'Journey' and 'Bequests of Love'. I read through 'Journey', didnt really like the plot and didnt get half of it. Scanned through 'The Inheritance', had to squeeze my brain to get things into it, so it was also a no no. The last one, I chose it without hesitation. I love the story and I think I'm gonna enjoy doing this. =)

After making our choices, we need to identify and describe the key features of the selected story, like the character and characteristics, plot, theme, point of view and style. Not forgetting to write a 150-word synopsis for the ending.

I've begun the research, and did a few drafts in Ms Word. Somehow... The files cant be opened. They do sometimes, but they dont too. I'm soooo not gonna redo everything, so I'm gonna wait till I open it and copy paste everything out. I dont have any hardcopy as I always type out whatever that went through my head. I think it's faster that way. Without the erasers and liquid paper. So yeah...

Now deedee, start work! =D

21 September, 2009


I'm trying to find excuses for myself being so.... Emotional.

Excuse 1: I'm sick.
Excuse 2: I feel hot. (As in not cold, thank you.)
Excuse 3: My baby's getting on my nerves.
Excuse 4: I'm in dilemma, which assignment should I start on first.
Excuse 5: My house is in a great big mess, giving me the headache.
Excuse 6: I have so many things on the to-do list.

Conclusion: I'm being indenial that I'm emotional.

I'm thinking of so many things again.


Sometimes I do really wonder coming back home is a good thing or not... Really. Yes I miss home, I have homesick. But sometimes I just cant take things like this and it really makes me feel like being an ostrich in ipoh for the rest of my life and not here to see all this havoc and nonsense. I just cant stand seeing all these shouting and nagging and crying and down faces. As if I'm back to see all these. I know everyone's stressed, and my rascal's been a real rascal. Yes he's turn ubber stubborn and now he doesnt even wanna listen to me anymore. Two months of not being at home sure changes a lot. He doesnt wanna heed whatever I say anymore and to be frank, it kills my self-confidence in being a primary school teacher in the future. If I cant even handle my little bro, who's only six, how will I be a teacher handling a class of 40? I've no idea seriously. He's too stubborn and he now cries whenever he wants something and really it pisses me off when he makes me cry. Yes I tell you, I cry over pekchek business about him. Damnit.

I now really doubt I can be a teacher in the future... Damn.

18 September, 2009


WALEH !!!!!!! MY BROCHURE !!!!!

Panic Panic Panic

I'm panicking. I couldnt get on the internet for the past few hours. And I couldnt continue with my both my MT2 and brochure. I really panicked, and now I'm still panic. I need to hand in both by 7.30am tomorrow, or today technically. I'm panicky now. VERY panicky. Help me... TT^TT

17 September, 2009


ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG !!!! I've finally finished math 1's assignment !!! Now to carry on with math 2's, and then the brochure. It was rumoured that friday's a public holiday. Holidays are good. =D But not for this time. T^T

The problem is... IF friday is a public holiday, and IF the lecturers want us to hand in MT2 and the brochure on thursday instead of friday, I'll be dead meat. I'm so very sure I wont be able to hand it in on time. Just calculate the total time I get to use a lappy, it's pretty obvious that I'm struggling here. IF things do go that way, I guess I'll have to explain to the lecturers. Hope they'd understand. *sobs*

Wailing cant do any help. Now off I go to MT2...

16 September, 2009

Crying over Fingerprints

Yeah I'm crying. No wait I'm not crying. My eyes are just sore.

I have three more assignments to go. Two math ones, and another one which requires us to design brochures. And guess what, it's part of English. *shrug* We are to choose from Maliau or Belum. I'll only touch that after my math. *shivers*

I was working on one of the math assignments, when I started to wonder how's wei doing now. Waifu I still sneak peak ur DA. XD It's just that I dont have the time to leave a comment to ask how're you doing. T^T See wei yun, I miss you... I just saw the fingerprints. Time does fly, and I'm beginning to not like this phrase, even though I'm still using it. It flies too fast. Too fast, that I lost grasp of so many things. Especially when I'm so stuck up with these tiring assignments here. I'm starting to complain again I know.

Ohya, today's my first time of presenting something in class today. It was just a short single slide. Puan Kana just asked us to elaborate on it. And you know what, I freaked out. STAGE FRIGHT. DAMNIT. I forgot what I wanted to say. And I'm so blardy sure that I babbled too fast and nervously until no one would get what I mean. Waleh I shivered like hell ya know...

Back to fingerprints. I know I'm being super repetitive here. But please lemme continue? =3 I miss SOBA. I miss ning. I miss wei. I miss jojo. I miss liyun. I miss luoyi. I miss joee. I miss susan. I MISS SOBA. After missing you guys, I'm missing others again. Like a chain huh...


13 September, 2009


THE time of the month..... Yeah.

This is actually my first weekend here, in Ipoh I mean. Okay not EXACTLY the first time, but yeah, first time not going home and staying back here, without being asked by the campus. Stayed back for drama, and also the tonnes of assignments. There was supposed to be a basketball referee camp, but it's postponed. But going back's not gonna help me much with my assignments anyway. Since I'll be babysitting my baby and clearing up stuff. It wasnt sarcasm I assure you. It's just that... Orz.

Maybe it's my aunt's problem, so I'm thinking pretty much these few days. Assignments are never excluded from the stress list, and I'm beginning to feel the fear again. I'm beginning to worry over things, which add up to it, and these are stuff I cant mention here and now due to certain reasons. I do hope it's just me...

I'm worried about home. Wonder how's my parents doing now. Yes we talk on the phone for a couple of minutes almost every single night. But there's always a possibility that they're not telling me something, just to not make me worry. Anyway, I'm still worried. Like I've mentioned, I do hope it's just me myself that's making up all these disturbing thoughts.

Another week to the raya holidays. Two days to wei's departure. She's leaving so soon. I can still remember the countdown exactly three months ago. And now she's going off. First ning, now her. Next would be liyun I guess. Luoyi's gonna be here for the moment, Jojo too. I dont know what I'm saying. But hey dearies, I do miss you guys a great deal.

Having nice classmates always help, but once in a while you'll still feel troubled over some eeny weeny things, which maybe doesnt even mean a little thing at all. Ish my french-ness is back. I need places to distress, but there's nowhere I can go and there's nothing I can do for the moment.

That's why what I'm gonna do now is, bury myself in assignments. And if I'm not talking to anyone, online or offline, or I'm not myself for the entire week, said anything wrong and offended anyone anywhere, I'm gonna be so...... Sorry.

03 September, 2009

Curi Tulang

Yay for me, I'm here when I'm not supposed to be here again. But if I dont, I dont think I'd be able to make it here regularly. *sigh*

I would like to express my highest gratitude to sooyin my super kind roommate for lending me her lappy when I need to do my assignments. Like I've said, no one can survive without using one here. Every assignment need it. OTL. And yeah, I'm still using hers now. *gamdong*M

It's so easy to guess, I must be overloaded with assignments again. Wait not again, it never stopped. TT^TT I'm still tired. I know I lost weight, but somehow my tummy is still... The same size. My hair is longer now, although not that long. But at least I can tie up a little hair stump. XDDD *waits for it to grow faster*

Things to do now:
1. Finish moral assignment's reflection.
2. Complete chinese assignment.
3. Start making my short movie clip.
4. Research for english short story slideshow presentation.
5. Continue both math assignments.
6. Work on KBL assignment.
7. Reply on google forum, IT homework.

I'm still a little bit hungry. Today's lunch is so 'healthy'. I had only mushroom soup and a packet of mamee. Had a few cubes of munchies. XD Class finished earlier today. And I was lazy and didnt feel like eating the canteen's food again, so I chose 'room' food. XD

I feel so lazy now. I have basketball practice at 5pm, I have to get ready to leave the room at 4.30pm. The whole campus is at least twice or thrice of penghwa, so walking is like daily exercise here. =) Puasa month, so today's practice will end at 6pm instead of the usual 7pm. After this will be drama practice. It's meant for mooncake festival's celebration night. I'm doing this with my classmates, so you can imagine how much I'm enjoying it even if I'm dead tired. =3

I've only an hour left before I leave for gerko. *sigh*

25 August, 2009

Back to Work

I.... woke up late. *dies* I planned to wake up at 6am this morning but apparently I didnt even hear my hp ring. So yeah, woke up at 10am. Orz. Math people, 10 - 6 = 4. FOUR HOURS. Zomg four hours, I can do so many things in four hours and I spent my four hours sleeping. *bangs head on wall*

Now to continue with my gerko (something like koku) assignment. And then my chinese history's. I do hope I can rush everything in time, coz I'm leaving penang around 4pm today. Very rush, and my luggage isnt ready. It's been raining for so many days and my clothes finally dried today. Rush rush rush...

Mum didnt feel like letting me out last night as she's worried that I might not be able to finish my assignments. As a matter of fact, maybe. >.< But I still think it's worth it. Went to wei's house last night. Jojo and luoyi were there too. We talked, we played. I cried, again. XP But hey, only drops okay. XD It's just that I know I'm so gonna miss wei when she's gone. Since ning is alrdy in canada, I'm gonna make it a point to practice emailing once I settled down after merdeka. Even if I dont have my own lappy and I have to stay up to 2am or 3am to do assignments. TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. *stares at clock*

Okay I think I'd better get back to work now. Who knows deedee might be able to finish her gerko within these few hours? XD

Worth It

I slept at 3am last night, woke up at 9am. Suicide.
I now have packing to do, assignments to rush. Suicide.
My eyes are really hurting. Suicide.

But, I met wei yun, jojo and luo yi today. =3

23 August, 2009

Rain French

I'm home. =3 The past two weeks were very very tiring. It wasnt due to not being able to go home, more of my aunt's visit and also the burden of assignments. If it wasnt for my cheerful classmates, life would've been a lot more unbearable, especially when I couldnt go home for the weekends. I'm not complaining about not going home, really. Coz I have 5 classmates from batu pahat, and they didnt go home for more than a month. I'm not the only one missing home. I should be grateful.

Everyone was looking forward to this august break, to go home. But our class is one of the lucky ones to be chosen to participate in the merdeka celebration at KL. So yeah, no going home. >.< The part we're involved in, is called the choir. Remember those people switching colour flags, forming combinations of words or something? Ya I cant believe I'm gonna be one of them this year. Hahaha. And the ironic thing is I've been wondering who are those people playing with the colours in the tv for so many years. Oh well, now I know. XD Hee nee is getting serious in KL. So there were rumours saying the national celebration might even be cancelled. And then we dont have to be there! XD I dont mind going there, but when you have so many assignments on hand... Sorry. >.< Now I'm home coz..... NO IT'S NOT CANCELLED. Hanya ditundakan. DITUNDAKAN. I still have to rush back by the 27th as we'll have to leave on friday morning from the campus. Actually that was still okay. But now... Lemme see, I have this KBL, China's History, 2 Math coursework, another moral but no sumbang mahram this time... Oh and something with basketball and also some work to reply on our class forum. It's one of our IT assignments. Discussions made there will be graded. So with all these work, I still have to rush to a friend's place along with another few on tuesday, then we'll start work. Which means, I have only today and tomorow left to deal with my personal stuff. OTL. I'm gonna say something similar to liyun's post. The rainy morning sure gives me the french-ness. I was looking at the droplets on my window too, when I started to think of so many people. A month flew by, and so many things have happened. It aches to think that I couldnt meet up with ning before she left. It also hurts to realise the fact that, there were so many times when my friends have hard times, and I couldnt be there for them. Getting busy in the campus, loaded with all the scary assignments make me feel like I'm cut out of the world or something. Yes I'm having a great time with my active classmates. They're really nice, I cant possibly ask for more. Thanks guys, if you do see this that is. XD But still... Damn I do really miss so many of you peeps. Greedy me I know. >.<

There's this mysterious abdominal pain which have been hurting me for almost more than a week, making the assignment-stress worse. I'm getting tired, day by day. I do hope I can hang on, at least for another few months. I must. OOOOSSSSHHHHHH !!!!!

I have so much more to tell, so much more to say. But I cant seem to squeeze out a few hours to write personal emails. So I'm giving brief updates here first. It's more convenient for the moment. I remember typing a long long email and everything went hang. It was soooooo *beep*.

My goal for now: To meet up with wei yun before she leaves.

Alphabet Tag by Fish

A - Available: I told my lecturer I lelong pun takda orang mau. XD

B - Birthday : 26th April.

C - Crush on : It ended.

D - Drink you last had : Warm milo.

E - Earliest person you talked to : A rat. Wait that's not a person.

F - Favourite song : For the moment, River flows in you by Yiruma.

G - Games : I'm dying to play now.

H - Hometown : No tell no tell. XD

I - In love with : SOBA, D.Gay-man, J16. =3

J - Juggle : ........I suck at juggling.

K - Killed someone : If cockroaches and lizards are someones.

L - Longest car ride : Erm... Cant really remember.

M - Milkshake flavour : Vanilla !!!! =D

N - Number of siblings : A brother and a baby.

O - One wish : For now, a lappy please. And lots and lots of cash!

P - Person you called recently : Shell.

Q - Quest in life : ......Dun really get this.

R - Reason to smile : Smiles are free. =D

S - Song you last heard : .....River flows in you by Yiruma.

T - Time you wake up : 9.43am. Today.

U - Underwear colour : Grey. Damn why is this here.

V - Vegetables : Never really loved them. Unless they're in burgers. XD

W - Worst habit : Procastinating.

X - X-rays you've had : Chest X-ray.


Z - Zodiac sign : Taurus. I thought that's obvious.

7 people you want to tag (Excluding the person who tagged you):

Nah, I'm lazy. :P

12 August, 2009

Not Really An Update

A month has passed, and congratulations to me. I'm still alive. =D I'm now here for the sake of being here, blogging for the sake of blogging. I'm crapping again. :P

I think I might be staying up late for these few nights. Hopefully. TT^TT If not, I'll have to remain like this for months till I get my beloved lappy. Oh I really had no idea that a lappy is sooooooo compulsory here. You do almost every single assignment with it. That's why I congratulated myself. *shot*


I'm stuck. Head's crammed with lists of stuff.

1. I need a lappy.
2. To finish my assignments.
3. For now, get piccies regarding sumbang mahram. Now.
4. And finish all math homework.
5. I need more Brands', 100 plus and ice creams.
6. I really need a lappy.
7. To email humans I miss too.
8. Before I forget, to kidnap pcghs' F6's math teachers and bring'em here.
9. Banging my head on the table repeatedly is so tempting.
10. I want to see ning and wei yun before they leave. T^T
11. Last but not least, I need MOAR sleep.


*Sorry my darlings. Emails are late. And guess what, when everyone knows that the campus' wifi sucks, and the only broadband received here is celcom, everyone gets one. Now, both wifi and celcom broadband are slow. So nice. *sigh*

11 July, 2009

On Hiatus

Fuyoh, a super duper late update! The last time I updated was.... when I was in form 6. Wait I sound like I've graduated or something but NUUUUUUUUU. I'm still 18. Okay this is really crap.

Anyway, yeah. I'm leaving penang. I got the offer for the teaching college. So yeah, I'm leaving tomorow to report to school on monday. Short notification. Blek.

I wont be able to get online often. I dont have my own lappy. I only have my hp. And sms'ing KILLSSSSSSSS. In a way, so yeah. But I'll still reply to sms's, and I'll still gonna sms. Just maybe.. Not that much? Lol. To my kawan-kawan, if I ever not reply you, it's not that I've changed my hp number, it's just that I need MOAR credit. XD Dont worry, I'll be alive to see you guys again. I'll reply asap. =3

There's something I'm not so happy about... It's nothing personal, but I wont mention a single word about it here. Just in case I get caught by 'follow like me'. (Direct word by word translation from BM.) Translate it, and you'll get what I mean. =)

Oh and another thing, something's wrong with my internet at home. That was why I've been missing for so long. Or maybe it doesnt make any difference...

Till I get online. This blog will be on hiatus. Bye.

30 May, 2009


Time flies. I seem to use this phrase a lot. But ya, time flies. It's already three weeks, and here comes our school holidays. Two weeks' break is just an okay. Since we'll need to do revisions and finished the heaps of homework assigned by our beloved teachers.

P/S: I love our math teacher. And the tone of the previous paragraph, isnt sarcasm.

KPLSPM's results should be out by now. I stayed up till 2am last night, just to check out my results. Rushed to the computer early 5am in the morning twice, to check again. And guess what, the date for the results' release, is DELAYED. To the 1st of July. Which means, another month of F6. Actually I think it's not a bad idea to stay for another month here. Just that, I wanted to leave for the course so badly before, was due to some personal reasons, which made me go FUUUUU. I guess I'll take this one month as a training, and also a warm up (if I get the offer) coz F6 is obviously so much tougher than the teaching course.

I'm afraid of the prefects' training camp on monday. Nervous too. I'm worried that I'll blank out on that day, forgetting this and that. Note that I'm one super blur person. So I guess you should understand how 'dangerous' is my situation now. This slowpoke is worried that she's gonna screw up her training. Really.

Homework homework homework. We're asked to finish every single question for the chapters, for chemistry, physics and math. Oh, angeline chee gave us another assignment. Some writing work. And I've got a graph to draw. Wait, more graphs in physics. Hahaha. I really need to clear my room, so it'll be a more comfortable study room. XD I think I might enjoy it (homework I mean) gua....

I'm not sure the war with the penguin has ended or not. I dont think so. AND PLEASE, I dont think it's even considered a war. Plus, I think I was the only one suffering from it. I just find it so damn swt. Anyway, I'm still learning how to not mind rumours so much, coz it'll only make my life even more miserable. Coz for me, most of the time, rumours..... hurt.

Good night.

27 May, 2009

Being A Bird

I find it so funny.

I cant believe the idea went into my head.
I cant believe I went for the interview.
I cant believe I am selected.
I cant believe I'm getting the tie tomorow.


25 May, 2009

A Neutralising Update

Okay, this is a short update, just to neutralise the previous bloggy mood. XD

The tinglish feeling has disappeared, of course. There's no need to elaborate on it I guess. It does happen once in a while. Oh well. *shrugs*

Anyway..... Two weeks down. Another week to go before the school holidays start, and the results for my KPLSPM application. Well I do hope I get it in a way. But if I really dont get it, I dont mind sticking to F6. Although it means staying in the same school with the penguin. >_>

SHOO PENGUIN. Dont ruin my mood tonight. I'm lazy enough alrdy. Damn.

A happy paragraph to end this post. =) Attended my physics' replacement class in the evening today. Learnt scalars and vectors and bla bla. And guess what, I've finally understood those super duper I-have-no-single-clue-what-you-are-for-the-last-two-years topics !!! HURRAY FOR XIENNY. =D

Okay, I'm going off now. Night. =)

20 May, 2009

Something's Wrong

I dont know what's wrong. Was talking to wei yun and fish, and suddenly there's sort of a sudden change in my mood or something. And I became quiet. I wasnt random anymore. I'm sure I wasnt sad, and of course I wasnt happy. And definitely not stressed or tired. Just.....

I actually stopped to stare at the computer !!!
The feeling's wrong. Something's really wrong.
And the worst part is...

Still Sick Though

Two days of rest doesnt seem to be enough. I'm still coughing so hard, till I thought I was going to cough out blood. Plus, I still cant breath with my nose. It's tiring.

I'm still going back to school tomorrow. Dont wanna miss any class. If there's any, haha. I've got an MC from the doctor, so I'm not that worried about the only-4-days-off this year. The rules may be disturbing, but after 5 years, I kinda get used to it. I dont complain so much about it anymore. I just understand, that it's just something I need to put up with, to pursue better education. Okay I'm not saying other schools are bad. Uh, I'm lazy to explain. Hope you get what I mean.

Went to youtube a few minutes ago, and I found the original version of caramelldansen. XD It's quite nice actually, just slow. Not just slow, it's VERY slow, when compared to the speedycake remix. The remix version is more fun to dance. =D

For comparison, this is the original version:

And the speedycake remix version, with the original lyrics:

By the way, it's swedish. =)

19 May, 2009

Still Loafing...

I've finished tasks 1, 2 and 3 !!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
Now doing the fourth. =P

Loafing Around

I shouldnt be checking out my blog, and talk to zoe online now.

Below are the few things I should be doing now:

1. Sweeping the living room.
2. Folding the heap of clothes right beside me now.
3. Enjoying my lunch in front of the tv.
4. Reading through my physics.
5. Printing out the questions for the interview.
6. Oh, and revising my chemistry. I suck at it. Orz.


I think I'd better get off to kerja now....

Safe From HEE NEE


I had some symptoms for H1N1 so parents got pretty worried this afternoon. So I went to the doctor in the evening. I'M SAFE. =P I'm still coughing like dont know what though. I dont like dry cough. Ugh. You just cant seem to stop once you start, when there's no phlagm in your throat. Orz.

Okay, about this hee nee thingey.... XD Dad handed over the newspapers to yu kee in the car yesterday I think. And then he read out what he saw on the papers. HEE NEE FLU IS......... Hahahahaha. I LIKE IT. So thats what I'm gonna call it. =P Well, you have to agree that it's a lot more easier to pronounce and type it out, right...? XD

18 May, 2009

Tidur Tidur Tidur

I cant believe I can sleep for so many hours. Slept from yesterday 4pm to 7pm. Had dinner, and slept again from 8pm to 11pm. Parents woke me up to take medicine, and I slept again, till this morning 10am. XD

I'm still sleepy. I think I should go back to bed now.

16 May, 2009

Something Abt My First Week

The first weekend, after my first week in school. =)

I expected the orientation to be very boring. All the speeches, talks, introductions.... These were never interesting. Yet I find my first week in school kinda eventful. Okay maybe not THAT eventful, but I've got stuff to worry and think and do. So I cant seem to get bored... Oh wait, I DO get bored. Only sometimes, when I stared at my tuition hmwk, and couldnt get a clue about how to solve it and bla. :P

I dont feel like elaborating on what happened this week. I get tired at the thought of it. So I'll just see what do I feel like saying... (I find this line weird, whatever) Okay erm.... Angeline chee gave us something to do. It's supposed to be an ice breaker, between pcghs and phor tay, and also between the lowers and the uppers. We're asked to form groups of five, each group consisting of at least a member of phor tay, and one from the arts stream. I was happy that we formed a group fast enough. Jo-Hannah, phoey boon, kar hoay, bee zuan and I. We need to make a simple survey, about what the uppers think about this year's midyear MUET. And in the end, summarise it, write a type-written report, draw graphs and charts about it. A very special first hmwk. *shrugs*

Another reason causing sotong's fatigue..... A PENGUIN. Ya, a penguin. I feel awfully mean this week, I seem to be ranting about it a lot. Here. But I deleted the drafts of rants. :P I still feel bad to talk behind others' backs so.... Hee. But of course I told some my close friends about what happened and how I felt. So I've also ranted in front of them. And.....ya, feel a little bit mean. WALEH, HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I REPEATED THIS, ABOUT ME BEING MEAN AND STILL I'M FEELING MEAN FOR SAYING THIS HERE. I dont know what am I saying anymore. *crap*

Aiks, look at the time! I need to go play with water now.... Coz I just cut my hair..... AGAIN. =D Well.... The school wants me to cut off the 1mm of hair at the back of my head. So it's now SHORT. And dont you dare to even relate it to CHAO CHANG. So there! :P

P/S: Kits, this post is longer nao. =D

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10 May, 2009

Back to School


Okay I dont know why am I so excited about it. Maybe it's because I'm gonna accompany jo-hannah to the koperasi for her school shoes. XD Oh, and I'm beginning to like my short hair. It's neither fancy nor pwetty. So I dont know why. Lalalalalalala ~~ XD

I'm going off at 12am tonight. To memupuk feelings with my bed and pillows. XD


Happy Mama's Day


09 May, 2009

Another Birthday

I was sort of over excited a few hours ago. Hence I went to show some friends the link of the maid generator thingey. Fish somehow got so excited and we started to discuss about maids and stories. Hahaha. Okay, my excitement spreaded in the sea. I ISH INFLUENCIAL. 8D *ish smacked terribly* And guess what, we collected results from a few of our friends too. BWAHAHA. *swt*

Okay, actually this post is meant for a friend whom I hadnt really talked to her properly in ages. Yes weeks and months are considered ages, for me. XD Miss chit chatting with her. *sighs*

It's her birthday !!! She's legal today !!! *fireworks*

(although I doubt you would see this)

More Maids

(from Maria's friends)

Your name is Reona. You are 18 years old. You have purple eyes and purple hair, and wear a black maid uniform. You are very boyish; others describe you as wild, energetic and vigorous. You are actually a snake, and can take on a naga form at will, transforming your lower half to a snake tail. You are actually a shinigami, a death reaper which carries with you an aura of death. You and your siblings detest each other. You're not really quite sure how you wound up becoming a maid. In combat, you have some kind of weapons installed in your body which you use to attack. When you are extremely upset, you drink alcohol or take drugs until you can't remember anymore. Due to your notable Athletics, you have the ability Trespass. You can take 1d6 Stress to intrude on a battle, love scene, etc. You can also butt in after the action has ended, and this can even work when someone is using World for Two.

Your name is Miki. You are 18 years old. You have sky eyes and blue hair, and wear a black maid uniform. You are boyish and cool; others describe you as doll-like, a tomboy and vigorous. You are actually a fox in human guise, and can display or hide your tail and ears at will. You have a small animal companion that sits on your shoulder or rests in your hands. The police want you for questioning about a very serious crime. You and your siblings detest each other. You frequently get caught up in your own imaginary world, getting lost in frequent daydreams and having trouble distinguishing fact from your own fiction. The master did a great service for you, and you have become a maid in order to repay him. In combat, you attack with a halberd, bardiche, or other kind of pole arm. When you are extremely upset, you escape through religion, relentlessly praying to heaven for protection and strength. Due to your notable Luck, you have the ability Escape. You can completely flee from a battle without taking any Stress.

Your name is Moon. You are 22 years old. You have purple eyes and silver hair, and wear an indigo uniform. You are cool and pure; others describe you as unflappable, expressionless and clean. You frequently get caught up in your own imaginary world, getting lost in frequent daydreams and having trouble distinguishing fact from your own fiction. You are a maid because you need the money, and that's about it. In combat, you have some kind of weapons installed in your body which you use to attack. When you are extremely upset, you spend all day sleeping. Due to your notable Skill, you have the ability Ultimate Menu; Add +1 to your Skill for the purposes of cooking.

Your name is Mystic. You are 18 years old. You have blue eyes and brown hair, and wear a pink maid uniform. You are boyish and cool; others describe you as expressionless, unflappable and composed. You and your siblings detest each other. Your uniform has jangling chains attached to it. You have long, pointed, elfin ears. Your maid uniform is a slinky bondage outfit made of rubber and leather. You are excited by the infliction of pain and suffering on others. You are a maid because you need the money, and that's about it. In combat, you wield a spiked mace or flail. When you are extremely upset, you escape through religion, relentlessly praying to heaven for protection and strength. Due to your notable Skill, you have the ability Lock Picking. You can enter any room whenever you feel like it. This works even when someone is using World for Two.

I'm sharing this with everyone who's reading this post, and also to those who wants to try out this RPG character generator.


YAY !!!!! TAMBAH SATU !!!!
Your name is Shira. You are 22 years old. You have gold eyes and indigo hair, and wear a silver maid uniform. You are sexy and boyish; others describe you as wild, coquettish and glamorous. You are the actually the daughter of a family of even greater standing of the master. You are very greedy, and will do absolutely anything for the sake of money. The master is your hated enemy, and you are infiltrating his mansion in order to seek revenge. In combat, you use magic to attack your foes. When you are extremely upset, you escape through religion, relentlessly praying to heaven for protection and strength. Due to your notable Cunning, you have the ability Fake Crying. You can use fake crying to use your Cunning for what would normally be an Affection roll. (This must be rolepayed.)

08 May, 2009

Maid Generator Thingey

Your name is Maria. You are 18 years old. You have brown eyes and black hair, and wear a white maid uniform. You are heroic and pure; others describe you as single-minded, spirited and clean.

You are a pyromaniac, and love setting fires... possibly even to the mansion. You and your siblings detest each other. You speak broken Pidgin English, and have trouble with grammar and word forms.

You are a slave, and have no choice about your line of work. In combat, you fight with a broom or mop, the basic fighting style of a maid. When you are extremely upset, you run away from the mansion. Due to your notable Will, you have the ability Immune to Pain. During a battle, even if you're sent flying, you don't take any Stress. Outside of battle, however, you can still take Stress points as usual.

WALEH !!!!!!!!!!


I'm finally taking tuition classes for chemistry and physics. Chem class started on monday. It was a little bit of intimidating. XP The class started in april, so I'm behind by a chapter. Mr Sim says there'll be a class for the NS students to catch up with the others, so I guess I'll just wait and see. My SPM basics for the science subjects arent that good. For the first half an hour of the class, I was like...... "What's that? Ohhh, that. Eh? That one leh? Ohhhyaaaa." Orz. Wonder how long am I gonna be like this. Guess I need to pour in more effort. *babbling crap again*

Just came back from physics class a few hours ago. Cant believe there are only four students, including me there. But we all understand that its because many students still havent made up their minds whether to choose bio or phy or even both. Some are still waiting for JPA and matrics. What's more, I'm the only girl there.... Orz. Anyway, I'm glad that I understood the things the teacher taught. It's only the first chapter, shouldnt be hard? Chapter 1 is more of deriving formulae from the basic quantities and stuff. I definitely need to revise my basic formulae like momentum, power, work, energy...... Bla bla. I know these are really basic ones, but pls dont forget, my SPM physics was... You know. Hehe.

Time does fly. I'm finally going back to school in a few days time, and to get back to my studies. I know it wont be easy.... But I'm still going back. >_>

Erk, my eyes are closing. It must be caused by the death of some of my brain cells a few hours ago. It's been so long since I last focused so much on figures. >.<

Hope I can cope when school starts...

HAPPY WOMAN'S DAY !!!! *or whatever you call it*
Cant believe I still remember that it's PCGHS' school anniversary or somthing.... I can imagine thoong lyn saying XIENNY YOU LOVE PENG HWA SO MUCH LOH again. Oh well.... Told you I remember random stuff. Wait, is that a random fact? Oh great, I dont know what I'm saying again.....

06 May, 2009

It's Short

My hair.... It's SHORT. Yes I just cut it a few hours ago coz the F6 orientation is on this coming monday. Going back to PCGHS means.....cutting my hair short again, ya. It seems that I get to keep my hair long once every 6 years. 6 years old, 12, then 18. But the next time I get to keep it long wont be 24 !!! HAHAHAHA. Oh well, nothing much to say about it anymore, pointless as it's alrdy short. This is the first time I cut my hair...this way. It makes my face look round. In other words, bak bak. Orz. Fine.... I'll just try to change my hairstyle when it gets longer loh... *sighs*

Actually I dont really understand I'm making a fuss over cutting my hair short. Really.

Into Form 6

Was trying to translate something for mum for the past few hours, but I find it pretty hard because the terms are.... Anyway, need dad's help. Went to lepak at the CF forum for a while before I go off to bed. THEN I remembered, today's the day, where the name list for the L6 students will be out. Fine, went to check. Cant explain why, but my feelings are really complicated now. About going for F6 I mean. Anyway......


04 May, 2009

Pain Pain

I should be writing emails tonight. But the pain is killing me. Hello my dearest aunt, you came at the wrong time. Ugh. Another thing is, maybe I shouldnt have pushed myself too hard during yesterday's training. Mr roy was teaching us our kicks, from the basics to the tougher ones. I was worried about my hook kicks, reverse swings, and my inner outer crescents. You see, I'm terrible at balancing. So I wobble at kicks. My weight is also another issue. After warming up with kicks, had a 5min break. Then came the fun part. Poh poh was in charge of the blues and reds. And guess what, she brought us to the sidebars or polls or tiangs or whatever you call them, REVERSE SWINGS AND HOOK KICKS. Woohoo! I've always wanted to learn how to perform these well but delayed my practice at home due to preparation for the interview. Anyway, the point is, if I dont raise my knee high enough, I'll get the tiangs. (Yes tiangs, easier to call'em that way) I got tired easily, the kicks were killing me, but I still tried to do every single one of it the correct way. I finally did one successful one, complete with the correct width range of my kick's angle. Yay! At the end of practice, I have a speck of yellow paint on a foot. The reason behind this is so obvious. If you still dont get it, another hint for you: The tiangs are painted in yellow. Get it? If you STILL dont, forget it. *I'm being stupid I know*

For the first time in 18 years, I'm gonna boast about my waist. Hahaha. Swt. But really eh, I cant believe after finishing all those super tiring but exciting kicks, I still managed to finish all the stomach exercise without panting. Hahahaha. I was quite happy as I didnt know the ring of wobbly fats around my waist can be that erm... strong? Nah, dont think that's the appropriate word. Due to my poor vocab, I shall leave it blank. XD (Evil sotong felt so proud of her fats when she found her friends around her have super pale faces and they pant like they're gonna faint anytime.) *ish kicked and slapped and tumbuk'ed and piak'ed*

I'm going off to bed now. Earlier tonight as..... Tomorrow's gonna kill. I've no idea how many times I've repeated this but.... I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE WORKING TOMORROW. My legs are killing me. And tomorow's my first day of chemistry tuition. WEEEEEE.


02 May, 2009

Happy Birthday

*hugs and squeezes and kisses*

Although you like to bully me, snatch my favourite food from me, hide my hp when I need it, sneak into my room for my candy box, camwhore with my hp camera, annoy me with your super stubborn-ness, get me clean up your mess, make me wanna kick you when you know I wouldnt, make me stare at you on purpose, make me go ARGH and you just run off chuckling, make me go chasing you around and you asking me YOU TIRED AH, show me those super frightening watery pika pika eyes whenever you want something from me, cling onto my right leg whenever you dont want me to walk, shout at me as if I'm your maid whenever you need something, bising bising bising non stop.... and bla bla bla....


And please get well soon. Coz if you dont, I cant eat your favourite food in front of you. And you know how that makes me suffer, you evil baby.

Happy Birthday. =3

01 May, 2009

Forgetting Again

I know I wanted to write about something tonight. But I cant seem to remember again. *headdesk* Instead, I suddenly remembered whose birthday it was on the 20th of March. Recap, for those who dont understand nor remember what am I saying now, please refer to one of the posts in March. But I dont think there's any need to refer, as all you can see here are all xienny's crap posts. XD At the end of that post, I mentioned that I forgot whose birthday was it that day, and I just remembered today. I know, very swt. Poor joseph, I forgot it was ur birthday. Havent heard of him for....years I think? Hope he's doing well.

See? I forget things so easily, and remember them randomly. And I was so hundred percent sure that I've a list of things to do tonight. Cant seem to remember at least ONE of them. TT___TT
*headdesk again*


30 April, 2009


I'm just here.... To be here. Didnt log in for days, eversince the erm, stupid post. Actually what happened that night was, I was reading something, and I've totally no idea what happened, so I just went you know... Crappy. I came here to rant, and left immediately after that. Didnt visit this blog for days till now. I guess I was embarrassed by myself for doing this. Sorry for the late replies at my spam corner. I just saw it today. And thank you anonymus, fish, kits and audrey. =3 I just read the post today, as I didnt take another look at it after I wrote that, and I find it very.....BLEH. Hope it didnt hurt your eyes. (>.<) And sorry for wasting your time on it. >_>

25 April, 2009

Stupid Post. Ha. Ha. Ha.

I really do need to see you guys again... I really miss you all... I'm so tired and I really dont understand how did I manage to survive after all these months not going out to catch up with you guys. I dont know what the hell am I doing now. I cant even write an essay properly and I do feel so damn useless. Throw me into the sea. Stab me with a knife. Stuff me with a great big pillow. Anything. Just let me stop thinking for a while. I've no blardy idea what am I writing here coz I'm just typing out whatever that comes across this stupid empty head but at least I'm backspacing some spelling errors that I notice as I look at the screen whenever I type and oh great, at least I'm good at this. I know I shouldnt post this here and hurt people's eyes but I just dont care anymore coz I really wish I could just stop thinking so much and ya I know I think too much most of the time and great I dont seem to make any sense here anymore. Idiot. When I heard all your voices you have no idea how much I miss you all and just getting out is so damn hard for me that I feel like soooooooooooo what the hell. Cant I just have a break and get rid of everything for at least a day and not even remembering any of it for the rest of the 24 hours. No, impossible. I suck at talking. I always say things I dont mean to and I hurt ppl's feelings most of the time. I suck at talking, in front of strangers too. I'm now so freaked out of this stupid interview and I know I dont need to as everyone kept saying I'll be okay fine dont worry but who knows I'll screw up everything that day and break all the bubbles of those expectations and I dont know whether I can ever look at those faces anymore if I fail. It happened so many times that I'm getting so blardy fed up and I'm just scared so what. Call me a chicken or whatever you please. I just dont know what to do now other than typing like someone who hasnt in ages or what. Yes I should be trying my best to write but I just cant seem to squeeze out even a word. Ya I'm an idiot, wasting my time like this I know. I suck at malay. Otherwise even with such a good bm teacher how could I have ended up among the rare ones in the class who didnt get grades good enough for bm? Fine call me a kiasu too and its even more silly being a kiasu when you always su. And the more I use my head the more I think of super not supposed to think things that make me go haywire like this and now I'm even beginning to count out my failures. I'm getting ready for this interview to get myself to teach kids but I cant even handle this small rascal at home properly. I can make him cry easily. I'm a bad sister and I suck at housework. I dont seem to do anything right. Mum's right. I'm one spoiled brat. Eventhough I've been helping out with chores for months I still suck at it. I'm still lazy. I just cant stick to plans. I have poor discipline and I've no single clue what the hell was in my seniors' heads when they chose me. I like chinese, but after a few months of not writing in chinese I get so sucky that I find it hard to get back to it. Still so thick faced to say I like this subject. I adore math but I've not been doing anything about it and I'm sure my brain has rusted and by the time I get back to school or anything I'll sure suffer and die. Another point supporting the fact that I'm so thick faced. I'm selfish and how can I still complain about my brother being a fishmonger when I myself suck at being not selfish. I cant help my friends no matter how much I want to. They're facing so much pressure and probably worse than me and I dont know how to comfort or cheer them up. I suck at comforting anyone. Everyone's doing something, on the way to their goals, moving forward while I'm still stuck here, whining like a noisy brat, annoying ppl. And ya, I'm beginning to annoy ppl so much that I'm getting afraid to talk too much to anyone face to face coz I might end up hurting or annoying anyone again and I reallly dont want that to happen again. I'm sorry to those I've lost my temper at and I know no matter how much I apologise the thorn or wound or whatever might still be there and who knows it might never ever be healed and I'm not sure whether you guys will read this or not but I'll just say it here anyway since I'm alrdy ranting non stop. Sorry no cure was one of the lines I used to make jokes with a lot and I know this phrase can be so true that it hurts so much. And great I really dont know what have I been typing for the few minutes or more and I know I'll definitely sound so stupid and kiampak but I think I might be able to count the number of those reading this with two hands, or probably one, and I've really have no idea of how much I've alrdy typed and my hands seems like they can still go on but hell I really know that I should stop now before I continue embarrasing myself here.

23 April, 2009


3rd day of sakit. I'm still at home. During lunch. Went to check the edu site. Again. Nothing much. So I went to lepak again. Hmm...

Oooo... My friendster... More than a month tak sentuh dy. Hahahaha. Someone actually wished me happy birthday on the 16th. That's super early. Hahahahaha. As expected, nothing much there. *wanders off*

Next, my facebook. Owh.... Nothing much too. I still have tonnes of tags to do. But..... I'm lazy. So many... Nah, next time. *wanders off again*

Hmmm... Ohyaaaa. Pergi visit cbox. Jalan jalan jalan jalan... Then blogs... Jalan jalan jalan jalan...

I'm hungry. So went to the kitchen to hunt for bread. Found peanut butter too. But when I finished the sandwich, I noticed that the peanut butter had expired.... Maybe months. Chia lat. *takes a big bite at her plain gardenia* CHEW CHEW CHEW.


WEI YUN ~~~~

Yes I panicked when I saw the TAHNIAH this morning. Kinda obvious eh? *looks at previous post* And bla bla bla things happened today, cant talk about it as I'm gonna faint soon.

I wanna hug Wei Yun for listening to me tonight. I really missed your voice, and I really missed seeing you. *sighs*

Exams suck. They separate us from seeing each other. *kills*

P/S: It's exactly a month away from your birthday!

We're gonna meet soon !!! =3