Tuitions

I'm finally taking tuition classes for chemistry and physics. Chem class started on monday. It was a little bit of intimidating. XP The class started in april, so I'm behind by a chapter. Mr Sim says there'll be a class for the NS students to catch up with the others, so I guess I'll just wait and see. My SPM basics for the science subjects arent that good. For the first half an hour of the class, I was like...... "What's that? Ohhh, that. Eh? That one leh? Ohhhyaaaa." Orz. Wonder how long am I gonna be like this. Guess I need to pour in more effort. *babbling crap again*

Just came back from physics class a few hours ago. Cant believe there are only four students, including me there. But we all understand that its because many students still havent made up their minds whether to choose bio or phy or even both. Some are still waiting for JPA and matrics. What's more, I'm the only girl there.... Orz. Anyway, I'm glad that I understood the things the teacher taught. It's only the first chapter, shouldnt be hard? Chapter 1 is more of deriving formulae from the basic quantities and stuff. I definitely need to revise my basic formulae like momentum, power, work, energy...... Bla bla. I know these are really basic ones, but pls dont forget, my SPM physics was... You know. Hehe.

Time does fly. I'm finally going back to school in a few days time, and to get back to my studies. I know it wont be easy.... But I'm still going back. >_>

Erk, my eyes are closing. It must be caused by the death of some of my brain cells a few hours ago. It's been so long since I last focused so much on figures. >.<

Hope I can cope when school starts...

HAPPY WOMAN'S DAY !!!! *or whatever you call it*
Cant believe I still remember that it's PCGHS' school anniversary or somthing.... I can imagine thoong lyn saying XIENNY YOU LOVE PENG HWA SO MUCH LOH again. Oh well.... Told you I remember random stuff. Wait, is that a random fact? Oh great, I dont know what I'm saying again.....

It's Short

My hair.... It's SHORT. Yes I just cut it a few hours ago coz the F6 orientation is on this coming monday. Going back to PCGHS means.....cutting my hair short again, ya. It seems that I get to keep my hair long once every 6 years. 6 years old, 12, then 18. But the next time I get to keep it long wont be 24 !!! HAHAHAHA. Oh well, nothing much to say about it anymore, pointless as it's alrdy short. This is the first time I cut my hair...this way. It makes my face look round. In other words, bak bak. Orz. Fine.... I'll just try to change my hairstyle when it gets longer loh... *sighs*

Actually I dont really understand I'm making a fuss over cutting my hair short. Really.

Into Form 6

Was trying to translate something for mum for the past few hours, but I find it pretty hard because the terms are.... Anyway, need dad's help. Went to lepak at the CF forum for a while before I go off to bed. THEN I remembered, today's the day, where the name list for the L6 students will be out. Fine, went to check. Cant explain why, but my feelings are really complicated now. About going for F6 I mean. Anyway......

I'M IN.

Pain Pain

I should be writing emails tonight. But the pain is killing me. Hello my dearest aunt, you came at the wrong time. Ugh. Another thing is, maybe I shouldnt have pushed myself too hard during yesterday's training. Mr roy was teaching us our kicks, from the basics to the tougher ones. I was worried about my hook kicks, reverse swings, and my inner outer crescents. You see, I'm terrible at balancing. So I wobble at kicks. My weight is also another issue. After warming up with kicks, had a 5min break. Then came the fun part. Poh poh was in charge of the blues and reds. And guess what, she brought us to the sidebars or polls or tiangs or whatever you call them, REVERSE SWINGS AND HOOK KICKS. Woohoo! I've always wanted to learn how to perform these well but delayed my practice at home due to preparation for the interview. Anyway, the point is, if I dont raise my knee high enough, I'll get the tiangs. (Yes tiangs, easier to call'em that way) I got tired easily, the kicks were killing me, but I still tried to do every single one of it the correct way. I finally did one successful one, complete with the correct width range of my kick's angle. Yay! At the end of practice, I have a speck of yellow paint on a foot. The reason behind this is so obvious. If you still dont get it, another hint for you: The tiangs are painted in yellow. Get it? If you STILL dont, forget it. *I'm being stupid I know*

For the first time in 18 years, I'm gonna boast about my waist. Hahaha. Swt. But really eh, I cant believe after finishing all those super tiring but exciting kicks, I still managed to finish all the stomach exercise without panting. Hahahaha. I was quite happy as I didnt know the ring of wobbly fats around my waist can be that erm... strong? Nah, dont think that's the appropriate word. Due to my poor vocab, I shall leave it blank. XD (Evil sotong felt so proud of her fats when she found her friends around her have super pale faces and they pant like they're gonna faint anytime.) *ish kicked and slapped and tumbuk'ed and piak'ed*

I'm going off to bed now. Earlier tonight as..... Tomorrow's gonna kill. I've no idea how many times I've repeated this but.... I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE WORKING TOMORROW. My legs are killing me. And tomorow's my first day of chemistry tuition. WEEEEEE.

I'M FINALLY GETTING BACK TO MY STUDIES. =D

Happy Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BABY !!!!!!!!!!
*hugs and squeezes and kisses*

Although you like to bully me, snatch my favourite food from me, hide my hp when I need it, sneak into my room for my candy box, camwhore with my hp camera, annoy me with your super stubborn-ness, get me clean up your mess, make me wanna kick you when you know I wouldnt, make me stare at you on purpose, make me go ARGH and you just run off chuckling, make me go chasing you around and you asking me YOU TIRED AH, show me those super frightening watery pika pika eyes whenever you want something from me, cling onto my right leg whenever you dont want me to walk, shout at me as if I'm your maid whenever you need something, bising bising bising non stop.... and bla bla bla....

I STILL LOVE YOU.

And please get well soon. Coz if you dont, I cant eat your favourite food in front of you. And you know how that makes me suffer, you evil baby.

Happy Birthday. =3

Forgetting Again

I know I wanted to write about something tonight. But I cant seem to remember again. *headdesk* Instead, I suddenly remembered whose birthday it was on the 20th of March. Recap, for those who dont understand nor remember what am I saying now, please refer to one of the posts in March. But I dont think there's any need to refer, as all you can see here are all xienny's crap posts. XD At the end of that post, I mentioned that I forgot whose birthday was it that day, and I just remembered today. I know, very swt. Poor joseph, I forgot it was ur birthday. Havent heard of him for....years I think? Hope he's doing well.

See? I forget things so easily, and remember them randomly. And I was so hundred percent sure that I've a list of things to do tonight. Cant seem to remember at least ONE of them. TT___TT
*headdesk again*

OHYA, HAPPY LABOUR'S DAY !!! XD

Back

I'm just here.... To be here. Didnt log in for days, eversince the erm, stupid post. Actually what happened that night was, I was reading something, and I've totally no idea what happened, so I just went you know... Crappy. I came here to rant, and left immediately after that. Didnt visit this blog for days till now. I guess I was embarrassed by myself for doing this. Sorry for the late replies at my spam corner. I just saw it today. And thank you anonymus, fish, kits and audrey. =3 I just read the post today, as I didnt take another look at it after I wrote that, and I find it very.....BLEH. Hope it didnt hurt your eyes. (>.<) And sorry for wasting your time on it. >_>

Stupid Post. Ha. Ha. Ha.

I really do need to see you guys again... I really miss you all... I'm so tired and I really dont understand how did I manage to survive after all these months not going out to catch up with you guys. I dont know what the hell am I doing now. I cant even write an essay properly and I do feel so damn useless. Throw me into the sea. Stab me with a knife. Stuff me with a great big pillow. Anything. Just let me stop thinking for a while. I've no blardy idea what am I writing here coz I'm just typing out whatever that comes across this stupid empty head but at least I'm backspacing some spelling errors that I notice as I look at the screen whenever I type and oh great, at least I'm good at this. I know I shouldnt post this here and hurt people's eyes but I just dont care anymore coz I really wish I could just stop thinking so much and ya I know I think too much most of the time and great I dont seem to make any sense here anymore. Idiot. When I heard all your voices you have no idea how much I miss you all and just getting out is so damn hard for me that I feel like soooooooooooo what the hell. Cant I just have a break and get rid of everything for at least a day and not even remembering any of it for the rest of the 24 hours. No, impossible. I suck at talking. I always say things I dont mean to and I hurt ppl's feelings most of the time. I suck at talking, in front of strangers too. I'm now so freaked out of this stupid interview and I know I dont need to as everyone kept saying I'll be okay fine dont worry but who knows I'll screw up everything that day and break all the bubbles of those expectations and I dont know whether I can ever look at those faces anymore if I fail. It happened so many times that I'm getting so blardy fed up and I'm just scared so what. Call me a chicken or whatever you please. I just dont know what to do now other than typing like someone who hasnt in ages or what. Yes I should be trying my best to write but I just cant seem to squeeze out even a word. Ya I'm an idiot, wasting my time like this I know. I suck at malay. Otherwise even with such a good bm teacher how could I have ended up among the rare ones in the class who didnt get grades good enough for bm? Fine call me a kiasu too and its even more silly being a kiasu when you always su. And the more I use my head the more I think of super not supposed to think things that make me go haywire like this and now I'm even beginning to count out my failures. I'm getting ready for this interview to get myself to teach kids but I cant even handle this small rascal at home properly. I can make him cry easily. I'm a bad sister and I suck at housework. I dont seem to do anything right. Mum's right. I'm one spoiled brat. Eventhough I've been helping out with chores for months I still suck at it. I'm still lazy. I just cant stick to plans. I have poor discipline and I've no single clue what the hell was in my seniors' heads when they chose me. I like chinese, but after a few months of not writing in chinese I get so sucky that I find it hard to get back to it. Still so thick faced to say I like this subject. I adore math but I've not been doing anything about it and I'm sure my brain has rusted and by the time I get back to school or anything I'll sure suffer and die. Another point supporting the fact that I'm so thick faced. I'm selfish and how can I still complain about my brother being a fishmonger when I myself suck at being not selfish. I cant help my friends no matter how much I want to. They're facing so much pressure and probably worse than me and I dont know how to comfort or cheer them up. I suck at comforting anyone. Everyone's doing something, on the way to their goals, moving forward while I'm still stuck here, whining like a noisy brat, annoying ppl. And ya, I'm beginning to annoy ppl so much that I'm getting afraid to talk too much to anyone face to face coz I might end up hurting or annoying anyone again and I reallly dont want that to happen again. I'm sorry to those I've lost my temper at and I know no matter how much I apologise the thorn or wound or whatever might still be there and who knows it might never ever be healed and I'm not sure whether you guys will read this or not but I'll just say it here anyway since I'm alrdy ranting non stop. Sorry no cure was one of the lines I used to make jokes with a lot and I know this phrase can be so true that it hurts so much. And great I really dont know what have I been typing for the few minutes or more and I know I'll definitely sound so stupid and kiampak but I think I might be able to count the number of those reading this with two hands, or probably one, and I've really have no idea of how much I've alrdy typed and my hands seems like they can still go on but hell I really know that I should stop now before I continue embarrasing myself here.

LEPAK

3rd day of sakit. I'm still at home. During lunch. Went to check the edu site. Again. Nothing much. So I went to lepak again. Hmm...

Oooo... My friendster... More than a month tak sentuh dy. Hahahaha. Someone actually wished me happy birthday on the 16th. That's super early. Hahahahaha. As expected, nothing much there. *wanders off*

Next, my facebook. Owh.... Nothing much too. I still have tonnes of tags to do. But..... I'm lazy. So many... Nah, next time. *wanders off again*

Hmmm... Ohyaaaa. Pergi visit cbox. Jalan jalan jalan jalan... Then blogs... Jalan jalan jalan jalan...

I'm hungry. So went to the kitchen to hunt for bread. Found peanut butter too. But when I finished the sandwich, I noticed that the peanut butter had expired.... Maybe months. Chia lat. *takes a big bite at her plain gardenia* CHEW CHEW CHEW.

OH I FORGOT TO LEPAK AT DA. *runs off*

WEI YUN ~~~~

Yes I panicked when I saw the TAHNIAH this morning. Kinda obvious eh? *looks at previous post* And bla bla bla things happened today, cant talk about it as I'm gonna faint soon.

I wanna hug Wei Yun for listening to me tonight. I really missed your voice, and I really missed seeing you. *sighs*

Exams suck. They separate us from seeing each other. *kills*

P/S: It's exactly a month away from your birthday!

We're gonna meet soon !!! =3