气死我了！

气死我了！明明说好这样，结果却还是一样！有说等于没有！

我也是有事情要烦的！我也是有东西要赶的！

做人可不可以不要这么过分！

退缩

好不容易放下顾虑，踏出了第一步

果然，门开不了

还一不小心就这样撞上去

老实说，有点痛

好像又要退缩了…

有时候不得不承认 

没得上网，就什么都不知道

真的要那么可悲吗

还有

有你们，真好

睡吧

视线开始变得模糊了…
很庆幸明天早上的课取消了。
所以我决定了，早睡早起。

头很晕

又犯头痛了… 幸亏今天提早放课，有时间找讲师问问关于课业的东西。要不是这整堆课业，我早就想好好躺一下了。真的很晕…刚刚趁吃晚餐的时间偷懒，哪知道这么快就吃完，又回到课业这边…

要加油！！GOGOGO !!!

要撑着

我知道生病呕吐很容易瘦，但我很肯定我一点也不享受这种减肥方式。我知道不舒服就该多休息，但课业只要没赶完就无法放心。我自己也无法相信，我竟开始觉得我的online生活很空虚。一定又是病魔干的好事。

这几天这么一病，很累也很忙。有很多话想说，却提不起劲来。也不能说我成天都在强颜欢笑，毕竟有他们在我身边。那些欢乐与笑声，真的很有帮助。还有那些关心，我是知道的。

请告诉我，我能的。

EFFIN BMK

HOLY CRAP. I dont know why we're putting so much effort into BMK. The same thing happened for BIK. These two aren't even our minors, yet we're spending so much time and energy on them.

Look at what I have to do:
1) 雷雨 reflection
2) 语音 reflection
3) Aerobics choreographing
4) MT1 assignment
5) MT2 assignment
6) Swami's presentation
7) Public speaking assignment
8) Swami's drama scene
9) 雷雨 drama presentation

MY GAWD, and by tonight I must try my best to finish the top two on the list, AND BMK. I dont mind classifying words into their groups and categories. But please, analysing word by word, from THREE 3-page speech texts? It's tiring even for group work lah wei..

Just got back from taiping and the freaking hot weather is really giving me the headache.. Sorry I know I'm whining again. (>__<)

ONE MORE TO GO

I dont know why but, the panicky feeling is still here. I've already slept, though for only three hours, which in between I've woke up for like dunno how many times. Anyway, not a good sleep at all. Orz.

Last night had to leave my last ucapan due to the short notice of having dinner outside. 4 hours gone. I would've finished it by now. Then came back with that uneasy feeling. I still feel it you know. Friends thought I was like dilamun cinta or anything but no lah duii. I think they'll understand what I feel, but I'm just too lazy to explain sometimes. Getting misunderstood is nothing new for me anyway.

So yeah, I woke up so early now. *yawns* Just to gaodim this last ucapan, and the table thingey. BECAUSE I'll be leaving for taiping in less than THREE hours. And after this trip I'll be so tired, and it'll take me an hour or two to replenish or something. There, one big halve of this beloved friday, GONE. TT^TT

Xienny, one more ucapan to go. TUMPASKANNYA JUGA !!! >:(

WHY NOWWW

Just when I've finished one ucapan!

Just when I'm about to type out the first table!

Just when I'm going to pump in more determination!

Just when I thought I'd able to finish this whole BMK thing!

Mum says we're going out for dinner !!!!

WHY NOWWWWWWWWWW. 

(;_____;)

TUMPASKAN BMK

YESH I'M EARLY TODAY. MUST FINISH ITTTTTTTTTTT. >:(

Although the previous plan was to wake up an hour earlier, never mind, I can still pia. It's already thursday, and please lah, what am I still doing here? Yes I've been doing work, but so what? I'm SLOWWWWW. Crap if this carries on next week will be hell again. Orz.

Work for the day: HABISKAN BMK. >:(

拼啊！

刚和妈到爸摆摊的夜市去逛逛。很久没和她一起好好走走了。我们边走边聊，我也不管会不会吃得太肥，只要是她说的买的我都点头。真的很想念这种感觉。昨晚的事，就让它成为生活中的一段插曲。我会尽量别再去想它了…

不知道是不是刚刚太开心了，现在整个人有点慌慌的。突然很担心课业赶不完。肩膀又痛了。又来了…不管了，累归累，我还是会尽我所能，和你们这堆死课业拼的！哼！

GOGOGO !!!

Headache

This headache is killing me. The screen seems so blur now.
I feel like taking a nap, the bed and my pillows are so tempting.
But I'm just so worried, thinking of the big pile of assignments..

Taking a Break

YO WORLD. I've not touched FB at all eversince I started working today ya know !!! =D

Now I'm sure that FB is one big distraction. I've finished quite a number of speeches and there's only three more to go now. And I find that watching movies and doing your homework at the same time is pretty impossible. It doesnt work that way for me. XP And I have to choose the right playlist too. I must either play piano or instrumental soundtracks, or songs with beats and also those songs which I wont sing along with the lyrics. The rest will be pretty distracting. Orz.

I'm now talking to ning and jojo, and doing grammar work at the same time. Skype is a lot more quiet. =) I'm very guai, didnt get on MSN and FB. Hah! Wait this sounds stupid but it is also the third time I've done this. XD Oh come on, I'm making progress okay? So putting FB and MSN on hiatus is one effective method. =D

I came here just to take a break. Off again to grammar. Bye! ;)

Yes Sick, No FB

I've drank lots of water and barley, I've had enough rest, yet I'm sick now. Haih. Really need tissues or toilet rolls on my table. Cant breathe through my nose and the mucous just keep streaming down like no one's business. Orz. I cant bweeeth !!! TT^TT

Last night was rushing through the grammar work and I cant believe I still cant finish it. This is just so lousy. ONG SHIN DEE, NO FB TILL YOU'RE DONE WITH IT TODAY GET IT. >:(

Sien Ah

SIEN AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Sorry, ignore me.

Been looking at too many ABC's.

Sick yet Motivated

GOOD MORNING !!! Okay I know it's noon already, but but but but, I WOKE UP TWO HOURS AGO. Not now. XD *obviously an excuse*

Despite the sniffs and headache, I woke up in a quite neutral mood I guess. Yes feeling a little bit lazy, but I feel like giving myself a good push today. =) Must finish all the grammar work today. And then I'll start off with the others. Actually I haven't plot out a plan on which to work on first. Will do that after I finish grammar.

Will officially start work after hanging out all the clothes behind me now.
GOGOGO !!! ;)

GO ME!

It's been so long since I've really updated on whatever that was happening last week. The March break is finally here, and as expected, it's loaded with tonnes and tonnes of assignments. Fine, everyone has assignments, but feeling unwell is making things worse lah.. 

I feel like I can rush to the toilet and vomit anytime now really.. But there's so many things to do now, and I'm kinda lost on which to start with for the moment. Oh wait, BI will be the first, I've promised. Then'll be the BMK. My throat is so cold now.. :(

Last week was pretty hectic in a way. I had a big problem in completing my 记叙文 assignment. Started off with a wrong essay, so I ended up redo'ing stuff in a way. I panicked, and couldnt even construct simple chinese sentences. You have no idea how much I felt like an idiot that night..

I know I have great classmates, but I never expected myself to have SUCH awesome and kind classmates. I couldnt believe my eyes when they actually came to my room to teach me. I was literally dumbfounded. Everything was so touching. For days I was worried about this assignment, and for days too, these classmates encouraged and helped me. In class, and also at FB, they were giving words of encouragement. I dont know what more to say but really, I'm really really really grateful to have met you all. =)

My first Sports Day at the IPG was pretty fun. And of course it's fun coz I was enjoying the big day with all my beloved classmates. I'm under the Eagle Wing, they call it Sayap Helang, and I like the 'helang helang' part. XD We cheered and laughed and ate and chatted. Everything was so enjoyable. =)

The night before we went out to celebrate shinwei and chiaying's birthdays. There werent any proper cakes there was this pantang we heard. Pressies are of course prepared. We went to the pasar malam nearby after dinner. That was the very first time all of us actually went together and we even walked and talked. And erm, I really ate a lot that night. Happy mah... (>_<) Next day makan lagi banyak... Cham nia.

Actually something hectic happened yesterday, during assembly. For the very first time I wanted to skip the assembly, and I'm just too lucky to be true, tsunami wants to take attendance. Holy shit, immediately yong and I ran down to the tapak perhimpunan. On the way we actually met shinwei omg, hahaha. We took the big  route from the guard house and went in from the canteen. Met a few lecturers on the way and when they asked where did we come from, we said DARI TANDAS. Omg that lie was so damn obvious man. Hahahaha! Though I was very worried and panicky, but I still find it very fun and exciting! XD

Hmmm, drinking barley already, but I still feel like throwing up now.
Wish me good luck guys. =)

Clarifying Some Stuff

Something's wrong with the comments setting. I cant reply to any comments at all.
The reason I'm writing this post is to clarify something regarding my previous post,

I have no problems in the pair work thing anymore. I am not thinking about it anymore. Pairing up with a guy for an assignment is no big deal. It's not that I dont like it, please do not misunderstand. Actually I can just delete that post to prevent fur misunderstanding but I chose to keep it as it's considered a diary. I am willing to clarify things face to face to ensure that nothing will be in the way for the assignment. I'm really really okay dy.

Thanks for the concern, and please dont worry.
Really really really nothing dy.

Scream

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Okay I'm being stupid.
Clean your room damnit!

To Believe and To Not To

Just when I thought it's mine, I see others having it too.

So you cant blame me for losing faith in you.

Fyi, I do hate it sometimes.

Sigh

I feel like a total idiot now... Why am I the only one not informed? I feel like I'm ditched or something... Why is this happening again...

To be frank,these popped up in my head when I received the call. I just dont like be the only one not knowing anything, or rather the last to know anything. I have feelings, I mind all these stuff. I really really do!

Okay okay, stop thinking that way. I've been working hard to not think too much. I've promised myself remember? Must not think so much.. Must not think so much.. Maybe they're unaware that I dunno about it. Maybe that's why they didnt tell me anything. Maybe that's why everything has been arranged nicely and I still dont know. Shit this negative thoughts.

Okay since things have turned this way, I might as well accept things as the way they are now. I can just take it as a new experience. This will be the first time I partner up with someone from the opposite gender to complete an assignment. Things might be a little bit different from before as he's not that close like my previous groupmates. Still, this is a new approach, and who knows it'll help me in overcoming that phobia..

Seriously I dont mind now. Really, no hard feelings.
It's just that, I felt a little bit sad when I first heard about it.. (>_<)