Potluck at Puan Hor's

Came back around a few minutes before 11pm I think. Then yukee handed me a clump of school uniforms. Realised that I didnt iron their uniforms yet. XP

The potluck was fun. =) Never thought Jocinda would get the boys from the afternoon class to join the party too. Thought only the girls from our class will come. Oh, and Wei Lun too. (Sorry if I mispelled your name. XP) He's from our class too. One of the two guys from our class. Haha. He brought a cake from Secret Recipe. Tiramisu. NICE! MY FAVOURITE. Hahaha. And I think Jojo enjoyed it too, she said she loves cream. So whenever we have extra cream, we scooped it up and put it onto her plate. =D

Jojo brought along two dvd's with her. Dont mess with zohan, and disaster movies. We laughed like maniacs when we were watching zohan, despite the fact that a group of boys were watching with us. Dont forget that almost half of the scenes in the movie is 18SX. Hahaha. Disaster movies was kinda boring. Not my cup of tea. I think the fake HSM I saw quite a while ago at an outlet selling pirated dvd's must be from this movie. Orz. Good thing I didnt really watch. Dont really get a thing anyway. Watched only the first few minutes, and I went to the kitchen for food again. XP

Ohya, talking about food. Hmmm... Lets see. We had curry puffs, fried tom yam bee hoon, fish or chicken fingers (I wasnt sure which one was it, but it definitely tasted like banana), TIRAMISU CAKE, steamed sausages, fried nuggets, butter cake, jellies etc. OHYA, the jellies! A guy brought a tray of eggs, with jellies INSIDE. I know it exists, but it's my first time trying it. Haha. It was kinda cute you know. Like you have to peel off the egg shells to get the jelly inside. =D It was nice! And what's more, the orange jelly Mei Yee brought tonight was one of my favourites for the night too. She said her mum scooped up the orange fillings, and put the hot jelly into the empty orange instead. Cut it into halves I think. Yum yum....

I'm really a 'zhui tang'. (It means water tank or bucket in hokkien dialect.) I drank more than I ate. XD I drank a bottle of wheatgrass, three chrysanthemum. =D I was kinda surprised when I saw a carton of wheatgrass drinks. A whole carton. Didnt count how many bottles were there. XP Oh, and I think the guy who brought it, was the top Chung Ling scorer for SPM. Heard of his name for a couple of times only. Errr... Mok Zi Hong is it? Never knew him anyway. Until I saw those interviews of the students who did well for SPM in the papers. Never knew he's kinda erm, cute faced? Not those super matured-genius-looking face. Okay, maybe its just me. I have weird opinions over things half of the times. I've always wondered, what is actually in the minds of these top students... Do they think differently or somthing? Aiks, I sound as if they're aliens. XP *kicks away stupid thoughts* Sometimes I do envy them... In a way. At least they dont have to worry so much about getting scholarships? =) And I just knew something when we were talking in the hall, the reporters, they babbled things that arent true again. It wrote in the paper that these scorers wish to take medicine in the future, but they actually intend to take other courses or somthing. Nah, cant believe the reporters 100%.

Oh oh oh, before I forget. Jojo wears a cap tonight. Haha, she says its to hide her hair in a way. She did something to it to make it straight. (Cant remember the exact word, sorry.) I mistook her for a domino delivery guy when I saw her at the door. Hahahaha. She's sort of lanky. Plus her cap, cant blame me! XD

Once in a while we talked about scholarships, courses and stuff again. It's normal, everyone's planning for their future. Almost everyone there achieved good results. So whenever they mentioned some scholarships, I wouldnt even think about it. I'm not even qualified. >.<>

March is gonna end soon. My previous phy tuition teacher's class is starting in April. I'm considering to sign up for a place. Coz I might take physics in F6. And another thing is, I think I might just take this opportunity to start studying, and warm up. After so many months of doing house chores at home, neither working nor taking classes, I think it might be a good idea to start getting things into my head now. It might be rusting alrdy. XP

I'm glad I went to the potluck. Cant tell why, but I'm pretty happy. =) And again, I need to thank you, Puan Hor. For all the guidance for the past two years. Will keep in touch with you. Stay healthy. =)

April's so near.... Another month is gonna end. But before that....

MY DRIVING TEST.

Being Random

I have an hour or two before I leave the house to get to Puan Hor's place tonight. Jocinda's organising a potluck party at her place tonight! WEEEEEEEE. I'm so excited to see her. Miss her so much! Wonder what'll she say when she sees me. "Oh shindee, you've GROWN again." Hahaha. Grown horizontally I guess? XD But I've been controlling my diet for a month. And I've finally got back my measurements before SPM. CHEERS! So I guess it'll be okay gua...?

I'm so excited that I cant think of anything elso to do right now. So I'm now surfing aimlessly for blogskins. I've always wanted to change and get something I like more. I usually prefer plain and simple ones. Hmmm... Sometimes my taste turns out to be a little bit different. Only sometimes though. I might like something I dont usually like. =D So I'm now searching again... :P

Weeee.. That's all for now! Hahahaha... *runs off excitedly* XD

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Random Otaku Test

It was raining for the past few hours, although it stopped once or twice, and continued raining again... Raining = laggy internet connection = cant do anything much = can only log into blogger. Was looking at Allenisya's blog when I saw a post of testing whether which type of otaku (nerd doesnt sound nice) you are. XP It was quite long, the post I mean. But since I've nothing much to do now, (is lazy to practice writing my hiragana), so... I'M TAKING THE TEST! =D

ANIME/MANGA NERD:
[x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes.
[x]You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before.
[ ] You have cosplayed.
[ ] You have done so in public.
[x] You have been to an anime/manga convention.
[ ] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[x] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[ ] You enjoy drawing anime. (I cant draw.)
[ ] People you know know you as the 'anime' person.
[x] You know that it is pronounced as 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled.
Anime/Manga Nerd Points: 8

ART NERD:
[x] You like art.
[ ] You actually consider yourself an artist.
[x] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.
[x] You have a favorite brand.
[x] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[ ] You give people your drawings as gifts. (Again, I cant draw.)
[ ] People actually ask for your drawings. (I'm being repetitive.)
[ ] You are known as 'the art person' at your school.
[ ] Instead of just 'brown' or "pink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'. Or whatever.
[x] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[ ] You have considered a career as an artist.
[ ] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.
[x] You have a favorite artist. (In my case, not only one.)
[x] Your drawings have been framed. (My first drawing of my family when I was 6.)
[ ] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go. (I bring a notebook and pen.)
Art Nerd Points: 7

MUSICAL NERD:
[ ] You play a musical instrument. (Used to)
[ ] You play more than one instrument.
[ ] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument. (I did, and I LOVED it.)
[ ] You've given your instrument a name.
[ ] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument. (YESH!)
[ ] You are known by what you play.
[x] You listen to classical music.
[ ] You are wondering whether that refers to the classical music genre or the classical music time period.
[x] You have a favorite composer.
[ ] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class.
[ ] You write music.
[x] You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favorite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc...
[ ] You have considered a professional career with your instrument. (Hahaha, dreamt of it, but it wasnt the instrument I knew how to play. XP)
[ ] You are never nervous playing for other people.
Musical Nerd Points: 3

VIDEO GAME NERD:
[x] You play video games.
[x] You own more than 4 different video game systems. (Not sure what did it mean by systems)
[x] You've had debates over which system is the greatest.
[ ] You play video games every day. (used to)
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours. (You bet I did.)
[x] You have songs from your favorite video games on your MP3 Player.
[ ] You love to talk about video games. (Only when the mood is there.)
[ ] You memorize the dates for when a new game is being released. (Used to.)
[ ] People know you as the 'gamer' person. (Only once, a long time ago.)
[ ] You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends.
[x] Your gaming system is in your room. (Think so...)
[x] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from. (Cant rmb which one was it anymore..)
[ ] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[x] You keep playing a game until you beat it. (You bet I do!)
[ ] NEVER LOOK UP CHEATS FOR BOSS BATTLES. >:{] It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the internet to beat their game.
Video Game Nerd Points: 8

COMPUTER NERD:
[x] You use the computer every day. (I ALMOST cant live without it, unless I've something else to do.)
[x] You have an account/username on some sort of social website.
[x] You go into random internet chatrooms. (Twice, I was too bored.)
[x] You spend at least 2 hours a day on the computer.
[x] You use computer faces. :D XD XP D: ^_^ >.> and etc.
[x] It is hard to go a day without using the computer.
[x] You spend time in online forums. (Not that much anymore. Have other stuff to do.)
[x] In the forum/chatroom you use, you are known there by everyone else. (It depends.)
[x] You have friends you have only met online.
[x] You have/have had a girlfriend/boyfriend you have only met online. (HAHAHAHA, I had a GIRLFRIEND. =D)
[x] You have actually met an online friend in person.
[ ] U cn ezly rd 'txttlk'.
[ ] You have said 'lol' or 'omg' in speech that is not online.
[x] You can type really, really fast. (Yes, when no one's watching. Dont know why.)
Computer Nerd Points: 12

Hmmm... Just like what I've expected, Computer Nerd! XD Followed by Anime/Manga, Video Game, Art and lastly Music. But I dont think I'm considered a computer nerd leh... More of...obsessed? :P

It was kinda fun doing this test. Hahaha. XD

3rd Day In A Row

Line is pretty laggy tonight. Cant do anything much. Wanted to log into some websites for scholarships again but couldnt. *sighs* Maybe kami-sama wants me to rest for a night? XD Lame reason. Hahaha. Fortunately I can still sign into blogger despite of this 'nice' laggy connection. So that's why I'm here. =D

I've finally finished every single episode of DGM !!! WOOHOO !!! =D But I still need epi 102. I think the 102 I watched wasnt complete, not sure. Nevermind, now heading for the manga! Once everything's settled down, I'll start following up the manga again. Still busy these days. Haih...

Jo-Hannah's leaving for NS tomorrow. Will miss her, but she said I can call her during weekends. YAY !! =) She's still having her sore throat and coughing. Hope she'll remember to take her medication when she's there. REMEMBER JO-HANNAH! XDDDD And get well soon !!!

Wonder should I wake up early to practise driving or not... I would like to practise, but I'm afraid of my dad's lecturing. He's frightening whenever I did something wrong. *shivers* I'm gonna sit for my driving test on the 30th. Less than a fortnight away. T_T I'm getting nervous, but I'm sure all I need is more practice. But again, the thought of driving with my dad makes me super nervous. *gulps* Must ask uncle (the guy who taught me how to drive that kancil, XD) to let me practice more.

Just noticed that I've been blogging for 3 days in a row. XP Broke my record. Hahaha. Well, I'm getting my bloggy bloggy mood back I guess. And it's really fun to start writing again. Come to think of it, it's been decades since I last wrote in chinese. Blogging and on paper with a pen. Getting lazy eh... I'm feeling guilty for abandoning my blog again... *hides*

Oooo.. It's 2.11am. Looks like I'm sleeping early tonight. Wait, its not early. XP Never mind, will readjust my sleeping hours soon. =)

OH WAIT, I know that it's someone's birthday today. But I cant remember who is it. 20th Mac. I'm 100% sure about this. Hmm... Bleh, will remember it within these few days anyway. Sorry!

GO SHINDEE !!!

WHOOSH !!! I've finally finished the online registration for the bla bla bla thing which I dont really remember what it's called and I'm not so concerned about it as much as the kursus perguruan. XP Was filling up the form and tried to submit it but I'm not sure whether it's my connection problem or the website's that caused my com screen go hang whenever I wanted to submit the form. No big deal anyway, since I've clicked the SUBMIT button and printed out a copy of my registration particulars. =D

Okay, I was able to enter slumberland immediately after I got offline last night. I think I'm just tired. Mentally and physically. Haha. So tired that the minute my face touched my beloved soft pillow, ZzzZzzZzzz... XD Didnt have enough sleep last night, coz dad woke me up at 8.30am to let me practice driving with his van. Yesh, practicing with the van. But no more fields and bulls this time, I drove up and down the slopes for around 40 minutes I think. He lectured me like hell as if I'm a stupid. Oh wait, I AM a noob when it comes to driving. *sighs* I cant really control my left leg, which means, I cant handle the clutch well. So stopping and driving up the slope and changing gears were pretty hard for me at first. Nevertheless, it became easier after a few rounds of practice. I just kept quiet and nodded my head whenever I did something wrong and dad told me off. I know he's right and experienced. (He's real good at driving I can tell you. Especially his reverse and parking skills.) So I just listened to everything he said. I should be grateful that he didnt grab my neck and attempt to choke me. Haha. Coz he really has no patience in teaching someone something. XP

Back from driving, did house chores as usual, then gave myself a nice break of a DGM marathon. XD Managed to finish till epi 95. But but but! I CANT UNZIP THE FILE FOR EPI 102! NUUUU ~~~ !!! Someone pls send me the file, or I might have to wait till bossu comes back from maple syrup land in july. So near, yet so far... I'm beginning to like allen more. Ohya, and lavi and miranda too. =D But kanda, my love for you is still here !!! Hahahaha.

Hmm... Lets see... I think I spent hours surfing and checking out scholarships and stuff. So even if I dont get any, I wont feel guilty or anything. Coz I did try and apply. Still, form 6 is hard... =( I know its good to prepare myself for universities by taking F6. Just cant stop feeling nervous.. Or rather afraid? XDDD Ohya, I still have matrics. Might reconsider then. Thus, ShinDee waits...

Okay, I must go to bed now. Since I didnt get enough rest last night. And before dad wakes up and chases me to bed. (which might make him go GRAR and bar me from the computer for 3 days) XP

Yes I'm feeling better now. Must keep up ShinDee! GOGOGOGO !!!
Thank you very much for the concern my friends! *hugs* =)

Waste-of-time Crap

Exactly a month has passed since I last updated my blog. Didnt have the mood I guess. I have another blog. Although its considered private in a way, its function as my diary has died down eversince last year. Blame myself for the lazyness. It was nice blogging there. Missed it once in a while. I just couldnt abandon it coz it's somehow important to me. Ugh, contradicting words again. Important, yet not treating it that way. A friend who regularly visits that blog of mine asked me the other day, have I abandoned that blog? I told her no, it's just that I didnt have time for it. Ya, even if I have the time, I write here. Though it's not that frequent either. Time... How much time do I have, before school starts, and I enter another new phase of my life?

Form 6 starts in May, most probably. Not sure about the exact date yet. Yes, I'm planning to take F6, if nothing comes in the way. The list of selected students for matrics will only be out a few weeks before F6 starts. I have a feeling that tells me that I'm going back to PCGHS for F6. Well now I do hope I'm going back to F6. I know its extremely hard. But for the moment, I dont mind that at all.

Hmm... I'm kinda confused now. Over what? I dont know. Everything started when I received my SPM results. So I guess I'll just start from there then. I wished hard for at least 7A's. I just couldnt stand getting anything less than that as I scored 7 for both my UPSR and PMR. So ya, I scored EXACTLY 7A's, but I dont seem to be very happy about it. Maybe it's because of my close friends having two digits results, so I'm feeling leftout or somthing. Hahaha. But I think it wore off after a day or two, the leftout feelings I mean. The big blow was my parents. I never knew they expected me to get 10A's that badly. "We know you arent good at your bio and history. So we dont mind that. But we expected you to get A's for all the other subjects you know. Not only 7." I just cant forget what they said. Every single word in the car. Reached home, went into the room to start making phone calls. Calling my primary's english teacher, PMR's tuition english teacher and my SPM's chemistry tuition teacher is a must. I owe these three teachers a lot. They're happy for me, and gave me a lot of advice. They noticed my not-so-happy tone, didnt know that it was that obvious. XP They told me 7 is good enough, but still it didnt cheer me up a little bit. Sorry teachers.

After the calls, dad called me to go downstairs. Oh great, my cousin called up. She was asking my dad why didnt I go and meet her in school when I got my results. Was I afraid of her or what? I was feeling a bit guilty for not getting an A for BM ya, but I can really swear that I couldnt find her. Pei pei just told me she wanted to see me, but didnt tell me where was she. Called her hp, didnt answer. Sms'ed her, didnt reply. Told my dad I couldnt find her, so we headed back home. That was still okay. The most uneasy part was, "Why didnt she get A for BM? Almost whole class scored A wor." This scenario happened exactly two years ago, when I got my PMR results. Back then it was Geography. Her best friend was my geo teacher. Lagi teruk. I must have disappointed them both very much...

Then, dad asked whether I've considered switching to arts stream. I was kinda surprised when he said that. Coz that idea never crossed my head, not even once. I was targeting science stream all the while, thus I have no idea what subjects or which school offers what subjects for arts stream. He explained further that it was because he noticed that all my A's are of math subjects and language subjects, excluding my BM of course. I can consider taking math as extra when I take arts stream. He even called up the school and booked an appointment for me to meet the school counsellor for some educational couselling. Both mum and dad went with me. Actually I didnt want to, but they're so anxious that I cant say anything. So I just followed. One thing I dont really like about counselling sessions, is that there is a high possbility that I can cry, if they mention something I dont want to touch or know or remember. And guess what? They did. Orz. For the first time in years, I broke down in front of my parents and a stranger. Okay, not stranger, but she wasnt that close to me. At that moment, I suddenly realised that actually it wasnt that bad at all. It was just that I have gotten used to my parents expectations so much that I've taken it as a normal expectation, something I should be able to achieve or get. I've been giving myself pressure so much and I didnt notice that. Ish, crying in front of the juniors suck. >_>

It was pretty calm for two days after that. Then, when scholarship offers started coming out in the papers now and then, my parents got worried again. I cant blame them actually. In this situation of what we're facing now, they are very concerned about me getting into the university for sure. They want to ensure that I can graduate with a degree, and find a job with a stable income. Plus I'm the eldest in the family... Haiz. Everyday they asked whether I've applied for any scholarships. Many of them are for STPM students. Even if there are for SPM ones, my results arent good enough to get me anything unless I'm lucky or somthing. XP I'm trying my best to look through everyone of it, to not make them worry so much. But as days passed, I'm getting a little bit tired as not every scholarship is suitable (duh of course) and whats more, I feel like taking F6 more. There was one night, I asked myself, I might as well revise all my basics rather than wasting time looking through bla bla bla and since I'm going F6, for what I'm tiring myself doing all these? I was ranting alone with my pillow and I felt guitly when I calmed down a little a bit. Silly, thats what I can think of to describe myself that time.

I think I've been repeatedly doing this (including the few nights with my pillow) and even me myself is getting sick of this silly behavior of mine. This blog isnt that active, so I guess I wont be disturbing too many ppl by writing these here. For those who're reading this, sorry for wasting your time hearing me blablabla'ing all the crap here. Just cant help it I guess. Think I'd be able to sleep well tonight after letting out a little bit here. XP