我只是比较会忍罢了

I've been looking through the notes my coursemates have been sharing on FB these few days. And a sentence caught my eyes this morning..

I may be busy with stuff, I may not heed anyone. But that doesn't mean that I'm not affected. My daily routine has already changed. It's definitely impossible that I can carry on as if nothing has ever happened. How can one assume that my mind is not occupied by stuff other than the words and notes I've been trying to stuff into this big mushy part of the head? No one can totally see through what a person is thinking right? 

我不是不想，我只是比较会忍罢了。