This is my place of letting out so I have my rights to spam and swear anyhow I like here and I know there are millions of people who swear even worse than me on their blogs so THERE.
FUCK.
24 February, 2011
14 February, 2011
Bored
Almost all the girls have gone out for karaoke a while ago.. Only cherry and I are left in this house.. It's Valentine's Day today so they're going out to celebrate Best Friends' Anniversary instead. XP
The house is really quiet today.. And I'm only going out at night so I'm having the whole hot afternoon free to myself.. There are assignments but I'm tired to even think about them.. Sigh..
Being Neutral
Another day gone. I've left home and I'm now back in Ipoh. We celebrated shaohui's birthday at shinlin's place tonight. Well, sort of. =)
Nothing much to update about today actually.. Everything is still the same.. Only I enjoyed the short hours with mum and yongyong today. =) Dad misses me I know.. He even called up when I was on the way to the bus station.. I miss them already..
My first assignments have finally arrived and from this week onwards it'll be even more tiring than before.. I know busy life will bring changes I dislike again but I know I can do nothing but to face it.. I just hope that I can pull it through again..
GOGOGO SHINDEE. ;)
13 February, 2011
What's Wrong..
I felt better during the afternoon.. But I don't know what happened and now I feel so wrong.. It's like my mistake has scarred everything and now.. I feel as if the pipe is gonna blow anytime.. I'm trying to think a way out of this but I don't know why the more I struggle the more I fear and the more I don't know what's going on.. What's going on now..
12 February, 2011
11 February, 2011
Eff Me
I always make things worse..
Why can't I just stop causing trouble and misery to people I care..
Why can't I just do something right..
08 February, 2011
The Pain..
I woke up late today. Terribly late. My alarm didn't ring and cherry had to wake me up and luckily I was in time get myself ready in 5 minutes before we leave the house..
Last night I couldn't sleep well again.. Woke up many times in the middle of the night.. One thing I'm glad about is that I didn't have new insect bites. =) I was clever enough to apply medicated oil to my body before I went to bed. ;)
I'm mentally tired today.. Don't plan to think anymore, and not to hope for more. I'm an adult already.. I should be more realistic.. I let myself slack for the entire evening. =) I even learnt a little bit on how to pluck the guitar strings and my fingers still hurt. Although it was only for half an hour or so, it was very relaxing and enjoying. =) The four of us sat on two mattresses and it was a pretty funny scene to hear weirdly-out-of-tune sounds. Cherry already has some basics while Chia and Wendy have just started their first guitar lesson last night. So apparently I'm the only one who haven't got a single clue on how to play this instrument. XP I still feel the pain when I type now but it's not a big deal. =)
I started watching Alice Academy, another anime series. It's a short 26-epi and I simply watch this childish anime coz it was the first anime I watched on Animax back then and I only got to watch the first four episodes. I've always wanted to know more about Natsume. =)
My aunt has come, the pain is getting worse but it doesn't matter. It'll just go away sooner or later. =)
Rants
Another disappointment.. Although I understand everything, there is still A TEENY WEENY BIT of disappointment left.. Sigh. Next time I should just rant here. Facebok is a place of sharing. Ranting here will be better I think.. Coz it's my writing spot and I have all the rights to crap here in anyway I like. All the rants, manja, complaints.. Sigh.. I should have known not everyone can stand me being sulky when I'm disappointed. Weiyun told me before but I'm still the same.. Stupid..
Ignore everything I wrote above.. It's just crap. I just feel like writing out rubbish and just hope I can sleep well tonight without tears and insect bites..
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