人海中

人生中只有一个人会对你永不离弃

那就是自己

这么简单的道理我不是不懂

但我一直都是那么的渴望着

那种诱惑，我抵挡不到

无论我如何摊开心房

还是受伤，相信，再受伤

就算是那样

我仍傻傻地等待着奇迹

自信一点一点地被剥削了

是被人、事？还是自己？

如果我说，

我觉得我一天比一天过得还孤独..

有人相信我吗？

A Small Motivation, Perhaps

THIS, is a totally random post in the middle of the night. XD

I was scrolling through my news feed page on FB before going to bed, and I saw this!

Just so if you don't understand Mandarin: 

The horoscopes which are most likely to lose weight successfully during this summer:

8th - Taurus

9th - Capricorn

10th - Aries

11th - Virgo

12th - Aquarius

I'M A TAURUS. 

AND MALAYSIA IS HAVING SUMMER ALL YEAR ROUND. 

DOES THIS MEAN I HAVE THE POSSIBILITY TO LOSE WEIGHT THIS YEAR? =D

Okay I know this is stupid, especially in the middle of the night. Night night. ==

今晚的你很不开心，但愿一觉醒来后，你会感到好一些。

我陪你。

Food Temptation

Mum's Roasted Chicken Wings! （¯﹃¯）

How can one simply control his/her diet with this kind of temptation at home? (;________;)

Sushi, My Love ♥

Lately I've been working on that same particular piece of cross stitch which I haven't been able to complete during Chinese New Year a few months ago. All that's left is the outline but THAT is exactly the most time-consuming part of all. No great expectations okay, it's just a small piece, even smaller than A4. Not my final target. XD 

I've been a "good" girl today, only switched on lappy around 5pm. XD  Nah I'm not that disciplined, it's just that I was busy with one of my all-time favourite - SUSHI! =D

Mum wanted to try out new stuff, so we got ourselves new ingredients. This year I bought unagi! Yum yum! And a few more ingredients which I've already forgotten how they're called. (Obviously lazy to dig out the packaging to find out too.) So.. I'll let the photo do the talking, as usual. XD

BEHOLD, FROM SUSHI CHEF DEEDEE OF THE DAY.

(Kisiao dy. ==) 

A variety of sushi maki! ♥
Dad says they look the same although the ingredients wrapped inside are different. T^T

Unagi  ♥

Warming Up

Haven't been updating my blog for a few months, so I'm trying to do a little bit of warm up and get back to writing. It's true that I feel more like blogging when I don't really have someone to talk to. It's like I'm talking to myself, trying to cheer up myself on my own. Dumbass. 

Another semester down, it's our semester break again. After a hectic semester, I just feel like slowing down my pace, rest for a while, and do something I like. Somehow the situation at home doesn't allow me to be 'carefree' in that sense. Never mind.

There are a few targets that I hope to achieve within this three-week break. Erm, I'm not going to reveal anything first. Coz whenever I do so, I end up NOT doing them. Orz

Enough babbling for the moment. Bloggy seems to be a nice space for emo release. -sigh-

两年前的痛，又来了

这么说人很让人难堪和伤心..
难道外表的真的重要得像是必需品的程度吗..

真的很伤心啦..
碍于你的身份，现在真的是哑巴吃黄连，有苦说不清..

Stress, I Think

Warning: Rant ahead. Close the window if you hate whiny posts. =)

I never expected this semester to be so tiring. I know we'll have a month of practicum, but I didn't know we have to replace the lectures and tutorials of that month! Everyday we have class from morning till the evening. Sometimes lunch breaks are so short that I skipped lunch. If I'm hardworking enough to wake up and prepare lunch boxes in the morning or prepare them on the night before, then I'll be lucky to have lunch in school. I used to buy Malay kuih and nasi lemak on the way to school but I felt sick eating them everyday. I felt like I was gobbling fats everyday. 

Many micro-teachings and tutorial presentations have passed. Without noticing how fast time flies, it's already mid of March now. I managed to exercise two to three times a week. I resumed taekwondo practice at my institute. Although my schedule is fully packed, I can't seem to enjoy and understand what's the point of making myself work like a horse here. I'm eager to learn, but the pressure is killing me. 

You know what, I think I'm being emo.

I faced some friendship problems too lately. It's just saddening when a friend you think you're very closed to ends up just wanting to hear you speak good words to her. I thought we were friends. GOOD friends. Apparently not that good yet. You need time to prove friendship and relationship. Seriously.

Next, I've made myself clear before: Once you lose my trust, don't expect me to give it back to you. EVER. Another thing, I cannot put up with hypocrites. Especially when you're trying to pull others' legs and be nice to me in front of them, but being a bitch when it's just you and me. Fine, be that way. I don't care how you talk behind my back, or be nice and make me look horrible. Friends who know me KNOW ME. Anyway if you really are talking that much about me, obviously my life is better than yours. I can't think of a better reason that makes my stories so worth discussing. 

I had an enjoyable dinner with housemates last night. I wished I could blog about it but this busy life is driving me crazy. I'm sitting for the KOM paper tomorrow but I don't know wtf I'm reading. Paperwork drowned me for the past few weeks and I feel so blur looking at this book now. 

Buku Peraturan Olahraga KOM 2012-2013 

Wish me good luck tomorrow.

不见了

其实，我伤心得好想哭。

My First Extreme Girl Shopping

One week done ever since the first day of the semester. I haven't blogged for five days. I didn't realize time passed by that quickly - I felt like I just blogged the previous post two nights ago! The past five days drained almost all of the energy produced by my poor overworked body cells. I'm feeling unwell (still is!) and class ended in the evening for many days continuously. Damn exhausting.

Last Sunday was my first girls' shopping gathering with my friends this year! Housemates asked me out to find Chinese New Year clothes coz some of them were busy working during the semester break and they didn't manage to get themselves new clothes for the year. I rushed to finish my work early that morning, and then left the house excitedly. =D

Before sending Cheryl off to the bus station, we had lunch together at Old Town near Medan Gopeng. It must have been long since I last dined in at Old Town. I didnt know they have new ice blended series! =D

Old Town Mix It!
White Coffee Cookies/Mint Base

Old Town White Coffee
❤ Mint & Chocolate Chips Base Freeze ❤

My always and favourite choice - Old Town Nasi Lemak 

Shopping starts at Ipoh Parade right after we finished off our lunch and sent Cheryl off. I was still holding my Old Town Freeze when I walked into the mall. It's pretty filling, seriously.

Little girl playing enjoying herself with the balloons in the playground.
Happiness ❤

After the loo, we started our clothes' hunt! I was the first to find a top that I like! (And could fit in. =P) But I didn't get it. Chia suggested that I KIV first as we've just entered that one store - I might find another blouse that I like and I can come back whenever I want. Suggestion accepted and somehow I became very VERY motivated to try out more clothes. Before this, I always thought that it's a waste of time to try out clothes that I know (or think) won't fit on me. Something changed my mind and I now think that I should just try out ANY type of clothing - I might find something unexpected! Be it a style that I used to dislike but looks good on me, or something that I loved so much but now it doesn't suits me anymore. At least I know what am I looking for now. =)

After nearly seven hours of walking and trying out clothes (I think I tried more than 15), we felt all worn out. Chia exclaimed that she couldn't feel her legs much coz the pain was killing her. We sat down at Shihlin and had a snack. We could still feel the Old Town Freeze in our bellies so we didn't actually have dinner that night.

Shihlin's XXL Crispy Chicken

At the end of the day, I did find some tops that I like but I didn't get all of them. Some are too costly and my budget limits me to buy only one or two that trip. I still managed to get a blood red blouse for myself. Mum will be glad coz it will nice for Chinese New Year. =P

Oh while we were looking at the girls' accessories at the top floor, I found these darlings!

The eyes look good in the photo with mustache guy, but it's sort of scary in a way.
I'll come back for the mustache ringggggg. 

A new habit I adopted after this shopping, camwhoring in fitting rooms. =D 

But I didn't take many photos of the clothes I love for a silly reason - I forgot. *headdesk*

This hand-knitted piece freaked me out with its price tag though I love it so much - RM86
P/S: Wendy loves herself super duper much in this photo hahaha!
Okay la I admit I love it too. XD

Those act cute faces - I can't believe I did it with Chia hahaha!

Learning how to capture photos with the big mirrors.
I omitted many trials. XD 

See the sweet roommates ❤

Finally a proper group take before we leave the mall.
We annoyed the workers of the store, a lot. =P

For the first time ever, I had girl shopping for nearly seven hours, bought clothes with friends, squeezed into a fitting room with others, and camwhored like no one else's business in the fitting rooms! I even laughed till I have tears in my eyes when Wendy and I first camwhored together.

I think I smiled to sleep that night. ❤

Of Presents and Celebration

Bloggy has been lack of updates ever since last year - It's 2013 already! I never really wrote about year-end  reflections and new year resolutions.

For year-end thoughts, I hardly remember what happened throughout the entire year, and I'm also not motivated enough to dig out all the old photos (and to label every single event). Reason number two, year-ends for me at home is busy family time. We tend to spend more time together as my brothers and I are going to be back in school/institute after new year. 

New year resolutions. I ALWAYS have a lot of them in my mind, in fact too many sometimes. XD Always, I think about what I want to do, and what I plan to achieve in the following year - As you can guess, I never achieved something exactly according to those plans. It takes so much persistence and determination, which I'm still trying to develop in myself. 

However I do have something in mind this year. I dare myself to make it public coz I'm making an effort. This year, I aim to learn to look at things from different perspectives and develop appropriate anger control. I'm really learning. *tries to put on serious face*

ANYWAY,

A little update on what I wanted to blog about (and didn't) before tonight.

Christmas Presents for housemates!

I made some erm.. Chains? I don't know what we call it. Can be used in class coz we have matric cards that we are supposed to hang with chains over our necks. Made it with shiny beads with wooden beads. We now have one of a colour each. =D I made a yellow one for Soo Yin too. ^^

And, my 2012 review on Facebook.

It was one of the wonderful moments on my New Year's Eve, watching these photos I'm tagged in in 2012. It's a pity that I can't download and keep it as a video. From what you see above, those are photos I'm tagged in on Facebook in 2012, but there's this effect where they fade in and out every few seconds, and I can't show it here. It's kinda touching actually. I see photos of myself with my family, SOBA and with my J16 classmates. I managed to capture two best screenshots that I can and upload it here. - It's easy to get the screenshot, but it's hard to get one with most of your favourite photos in it. XP

Lastly, I hope everyone good luck and health in this brand new year. 2013 will be a great new year! Coz we survived doomsday, remember? =P