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Blog Challenge - Day 14

2012-01-29T22:55:00.000+08:00

DAY 14 - TWO WAYS TO WIN MY HEART(See Challenge) Show me care. So easy. But of course, sincere care. I guess this is the reason why I am easily deceived. Trust. Yes I may be easily deceived, but when I have given chances and chances are not appreciated, I will not trust him or her anymore. Even if I do, I will doubt you. Forever. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Day Thirteen

2012-01-29T00:30:00.000+08:00

DAY 13 - 3 WAYS TO MAKE ME CRY 1. Make me angry. VERY, VERY ANGRY. I'll get so angry that after swearing and telling off someone, I'll break out in tears. 2. When I'm touched on the inside, deeply. A simple surprise can bring out my tears. 3. Lastly, and also the easiest way to make me cry, hurt me on the inside. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Now Day 12

2012-01-27T23:11:00.000+08:00

I had a day off with my family yesterday. There wasn't any Wifi, and the DiGi signal was pretty bad over there. So I couldn't update bloggy at all. Anyway I'm back, and this time's topic comes at a really bad time.. DAY 12 - 4 BAD THINGS ABOUT ME 1. I am a passive person. Kinda? I fear the crowd, still I'll try to be the first to talk to anyone, anywhere, when needed. If not, I just hope to be

Resuming Challenge D11

2012-01-25T16:34:00.000+08:00

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.. I know something is wrong already. I can't tell unless I've confirmed about this. I've begun to lose interest in the things I love. Weiyun suggested that I start brushing up my writing skills coz it's cathartic. (Yay new word!) I've signed up for a tumblr account and I spent some time exploring it. I like tumblr, really. But I don't have that urge

静静地

2012-01-24T17:20:00.000+08:00

难得全家想一起出去玩，但我一点心情都没有。太多事情，太多问题。一切都是忍太久后所累积出来的后果。生病了，更加造成身心都疲惫。一直以来的“以为”，突然变得很茫然。原来我做人真的很失败。我一直告诉自己，人人都有他的优点与缺点。所以这几个晚上都在反省。我很努力很努力地在想，想想我自己的缺点和优点。想着想着，我哭了..我真的很差。有优点又怎样？全都被我过多的缺点掩盖了。而且哪些优点很小很普通，又不是我一个人有，不值得一提。缺点却是那些需要的，重要的。幼稚自私还有数不清的烂缺点。这几天想了那么久，原来我真的是个废人，毫无一技之长。是要改，但突然觉得好累。被人讨厌，被人嫌弃，被人骂，果然是活该的.. 我要的其实很简单，我只想静静地过完这几天.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

闷闷底的开学第一天

2012-01-04T19:02:00.002+08:00

在怡保睡了一个晚上，三个字 —— 够难睡！第一个晚上失眠了，在床上翻身无数次，双眼还是显得精神奕奕的。也许是回到了这里的第一个晚上吧，难免会有些许的不习惯。由于最近在心烦于一些问题，再加上还没完全习惯回到这张床，相信这几个晚上都应该不容易入睡的啦。希望在多几个晚上我会好睡一些啦~ 这个学期轮到我兼文书这一职了。其实我有点担心我不太能胜任这个职位。毕竟我有些交通问题，不能随时随地地出去复印班上所需要的文件和笔记等。除此之外，我班很自然地有个“传统”，那就是当学期的文书将在接下来的学期当班长。用我班男生的名言——做鸭了，也可以说是那些 DOTA KAKI 常常挂在嘴边的"GG"。不过班上的每个人都会面对同样的问题的啦，只是谁先谁后而已，我相信我可以想办法解决。再看看吧~ 开学第一天挺让人无奈。早上的 BRIEFING 还好。后来我们到课室去打扫。开玩笑，那里简直就是壁虎与蜘蛛的天下。

异常非常的舍不得

2012-01-03T01:48:00.000+08:00

对不起啦，还来不及列出我在2012年为自己所设下的目标，就跳出了这篇程咬金了。我找不到地方发泄，只好三更半夜从床上爬起来上网写博。明天就要搭巴士回怡保了，我现在感到非常非常的难受。我好不舍得家里，很不舍得父母，不舍得勇勇。虽然有时在家里会因为某些原因而感到很压力，但我真的是开始想家了。我的眼泪就一直流一直流，根本就停不下来。我也不知道为什么今晚会是那么的情绪化，但我真的无法停止哭泣.. 曾经有个朋友劝我别常常在这里搞EMO，要乐观点，我也答应了。但今晚的情绪真的很低落。我不是没有努力。我一直不停地告诉自己，新的学期到了，要振作并积极面对挑战，毕竟课业和许多外来压力一定会一波一波的向我卷来。除此之外，在多两个星期就可以放假回家了。忍忍一下，没什么大不了。但我还是很情绪化。所以我选择大哭一场。哭完了就要好好睡觉、休息。明天开始准备面对即将来临的挑战。不过我知道明天上了巴士后，

WOMG 考试成绩 ?!

2011-12-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

晚餐后，看到我班涂鸦墙上多了一个链接，就很兴奋地跑去开来看。怎知被吓得立刻喊了出来，老爸老妈还很紧张得问我发生了什么事。其实也没什么，只是我们的考试成绩好像出炉了。@@ 我用“好像”，是因为听说其他州属的学员可以开始检查自己的考试成绩了，但我们怡保师范学院还不能。从看到链接的那一刻到现在肚子都还在绞痛着。老实说，我宁愿把责任推到下午吃的那一包椰浆饭，也不会接受我竟然又紧张的这个原因。(=3=) nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

稿纸上 • 那点墨

2011-12-09T15:54:00.000+08:00

失眠 —— 失眠是睡眠障碍中最常见的病症。失眠指的入睡困难、睡眠中间易醒及早醒睡眠质量低下、睡眠时间明显减少，有严重的患者还彻夜不眠。长期失眠易引起心烦易乱、疲乏无力，甚至以头痛、多梦、多汗、记忆力减退，还可引起一系列临床症状，并诱发一些心身性疾病。最近我的失眠问题又出现了。虽然并不至于整夜完全睡不着，但辗转难眠已经足以让我感到越来越无力。昨晚是几个月以来失眠得最糟糕的一晚：凌晨四点半。又或是五点，我也不清楚了。只记得房间里已经很暗很暗，我甚至无聊地用手在脸前乱晃了几下，验证“伸手不见五指”这句话，得到的结论也证实了我的房间真的很暗了。在那么黑暗的情况下，我竟然还是睡不着。昨晚在难熬的朦胧当中，我想起了小学时的一段回忆。一段不开心的回忆。UPSR考完了，校方也安排了一些有趣的活动给我们，以免学生来到了学校还无所事事。那天，老师要我们分成几个小组，用一些小材料建小木屋。

This 'BLOCK' Business

2011-12-05T12:24:00.001+08:00

I felt like I've been slapped at the face. TWICE. How could I let this happen to myself again? Orz. That feeling when you're added by someone, and then 'unfriend'ed by the same person just because you said something he doesn't like. Okay I guess I can understand that. I will NEVER add or approve this person's friend request again. That feeling when you're invited by someone, and then blocked. I

Bead Bracelet

2011-11-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

I was so happy with last night's pendant that I thought I'd try another kind of bead craft. This time I tried with a bracelet that mum likes very much. I like the colour coz it's casual and I dress casually most of the time. XD The only dissatisfaction is the hook. I'm going to change the hook of the bracelet when I find the suitable one. This took a longer time than the star pendant. Phew.

Star Pendant

2011-11-22T00:56:00.000+08:00

We haven't transferred Streamyx to our new house. So dad uses my lappy every night to get online. Usually I get bored because I'm too used to facing lappy almost all the time. But today, I dug out my beads accessories, and I started to make a star pendant! I still have my basics! Not bad at all. XD nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

The Last Paper!

2011-11-17T08:58:00.001+08:00

Although I'm sitting for my last paper today, I just loafed around online last night. Even "Bakemonogatari" (an anime on ghost stories, more like oddities) is left with one episode. I woke up some time around 8am and I've been calculating how much time I have left. OH WELL. XD Okok, I know I shouldn't. XD Anyway, I'm cooking my lunch later before going to school. It'll take me at least an hour

First Defrost

2011-11-16T13:35:00.000+08:00

I didn't mean to disappear after I came back to Ipoh. I can still recall everything I did pretty clearly. Coz there wasn't much other than preparing a big surprise for him. XP Yep I was literally busy with the preparation, and after that I carried on with my revision for my semester exams. I'll start things chronologically. I start preparing for this ''surprise'' (shows the XD face) ever since

Pre-Defroze

2011-10-29T15:10:00.000+08:00

After all the hectic stuff happening recently, I think I need to release stress with a healthy way. I will hold back and try my best to not emo much. I choose to write as I think writing is a good way to neutralize the negative feelings. I just can't wait to go back to Ipoh tomorrow. I have many many plans in my head. =D I'M GOING TO DEFROZE BLOGGY ONCE I'M BACK IN IPOH. nuffnang_bid = "

解药

2011-10-08T23:12:00.002+08:00

我知道那个解药不会是我..

一厢情愿

2011-08-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

原来一直都是我一厢情愿.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Please..

2011-08-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

I saw that email and that message.. Suddenly something clicked on the inside.. And my eyes turned wet.. Does this mean that it's over..? I really hope it is.. I want everything back to normal.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Enough

2011-08-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

I had enough.. I really had enough.. I don't want anything anymore.. I won't ask for anything.. I won't hope for anything anymore.. I'm tired.. I'm really tired.. I just want everything to be normal.. I won't ask for more.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

That "Nightmare Come True"

2011-08-03T15:04:00.001+08:00

I could hardly breathe.. I tried to hold back everything, to put the curve back on my face.. I kept getting the cold shoulder. I don't have anyone to turn to, but to face it. Tauruses are poor at cold war. I can keep on waiting, but only if there is something for me to wait.. I kept waiting, waiting and waiting.. But may I know.. What is at the end of the road.. I'm terrified of the night, I'm

I'm a Fool

2011-08-03T00:54:00.001+08:00

I shouldn't have hoped, I shouldn't have expected anything. But what I wanted was very simple. A simple meal turned out into something that ruined everything. My hard work, my plans, my effort, my hope. I have big plans, but nothing seems to be right. No one can change within a day, not to mention a night. So time will be the judge. However when even time is not given, I have no single clue what

Promises

2011-08-01T14:25:00.000+08:00

I woke up feeling something heavy pressuring my heart. I feel panicky, yet I know what I was supposed to do after getting myself fresh. I started printing out my first assignment for the semester, and I'm still feeling very uneasy. I reached the classroom feeling hungry, as I didn't get to eat breakfast in time. Suddenly Francis noticed that I printed his matrix number incorrectly. Both him and I

想逃避

2011-07-11T14:45:00.000+08:00

从一开始就已料到的事情..到现在我还无法坦然接受..也许是昨晚睡得不够，身体上的劳累让精神上的疲惫倍增..头真的越来越痛..心愈来愈郁闷..但偏偏除了接受，我什么都不能做.. 迟些要到欣琳她们家去练GYMRAMA。有点期待能重温去年的那段时光。同时我也很自私地希望能暂时逃避我不想面对的事.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

痛

2011-07-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

还痛着.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

羡慕

2011-07-05T17:24:00.000+08:00

放学前和DEAR聊了一阵子，我觉得好多了。但回到家，看到她们的兴奋，听见她们的笑声，我不禁静了下来，想起和她的一段友情。短短一年内竟然发生了那么大的改变。我很想念一起笑个不停的日子。这个谈心事的伴，已不再。好羡慕.. 好想好好哭一场，好好睡个觉，希望醒来后什么事都不会再想。但我知道这是不可能的。最近烦恼很多，在班上强颜欢笑的日子，我还能撑多久呢.. 我在忍，现在的我一边深呼吸，一边打字，我不要哭。也许我会，但至少现在我还在忍着。希望能尽快雨过天晴..

Shit Again

2011-06-29T13:58:00.000+08:00

No one to talk to about what I feel now.. It's always like this.. I always have to deal it on my own.. And deepen my old wounds..

禁忌

2011-06-26T12:36:00.003+08:00

雨越下越大浪潮愈来愈汹涌避风港也似乎起雾了岸上的那个房子我快看不见了就算看得见那又怎样模模糊糊的不安为了岸上我冒险了我碰触了那个禁忌现在的恐惧感我相信只是一种惩戒亦或是惩罚的开始是我终于卷入那漩涡了也许现在还只是个开始我不知道有点.. 两边都不到岸的感觉下一步.. 我该怎么走呢.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Blog Challenge - Day 10

2011-06-08T13:05:00.000+08:00

DAY TEN - 6 THINGS I'LL NEVER DO 1. I will NEVER join competitions like Fear Factor. I just can't make myself eat those disgusting insects to get the one million dollars. 2. I will never back stab my friends. Hahahaha but forgive me for funny and harmless gossips. XD 3. I will never stop taking meat for the purpose of losing weight. One reason is that I really really love to eat meat, and the

Blog Challenge - Day 9

2011-06-08T12:04:00.000+08:00

DAY NINE - 7 THINGS I WANT TO DO Couldn't continue as I headed to Bukit Mertajam with my family yesterday. Something's wrong with our car again.. But I'm glad mum cheered up a little bit when we had a mini steamboat. =) 1. I want to increase the amount of my savings. I realise that money can be so important when something emergency happens. It's just that sometimes unwanted things will come in

Blog Challenge - Day 8

2011-06-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

DAY EIGHT - 8 THINGS I'M KNOWN FOR NOW THIS POST IS GONNA CRACK MY HEAD LIKE ANYTHING. I emo.I'm lazy.I love food.I'm talkative. I watch anime.I speak English.I'm very annoying.I do things at the last minute. I can only think of these for the moment.I know I have more bad points to elaborate on. Orz.

Just Realised..

2011-06-05T13:08:00.001+08:00

I've just realised something.. It's not that I don't have anyone to talk to online.. It's just that I don't have the time and chance to chat online during the day that much.. When I'm at home, anything can pop up suddenly and I have to leave lappy to work.. I cannot afford to sit down in front of lappy all day.. I always work and stay for a while online and work again. Or I might be doing stuff

Blog Challenge - Day 7

2011-06-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

DAY SEVEN - 9 THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY 1. Being able to wake up without rushing anything or things to worry about. It is really blissful to wake up with a smile every morning. I like the calm feeling when I open my eyes without worries. 2. Seeing my parents laughing and smiling. I haven't heard them laughing out from their hearts for ages.. They've been under stress for weeks due to many

Blog Challenge - Day 6

2011-06-04T16:01:00.001+08:00

DAY SIX - 10 THINGS I DO WHEN I'M BORED Hahahaha erm, this challenge shouldn't be that hard when compared to the last few day's maybe? *starts brainstorming* 1. FACEBOOK! XD It can be said that my Facebook is on for the whole day but I only appear online when I'm able to be there all the time. If I'm busy or away from lappy, I'll appear offline. If I'm sleeping or studying downstairs (I hereby

My Can Glasses !!! =D

2011-06-04T00:17:00.000+08:00

LOOK AT THIS !!!MY HARD WORK OF SIX WEEKS !!! I hereby would like to express my greatest gratitude to My beloved deardear and family. Deardear kinda 'suffered' throughout the first five weeks. He ate the first meal for me. He also had to accompany me for four weeks. Mum and Dad also let me have the last cup in Penang. We finally had a very simple meal of McD lunch at home together. ♥ MY CAN

Food Fair - Missed

2011-06-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

My family and I intended to attend the Food Fair at PISA (Penang International Sports Arena) this year.. But our schedule were delayed.. When we got there, the stalls are closed. =( Dad said we might be able to go there again tomorrow though. I really hope I can go there again. There's this International Chocolate Fair.. And one more thing.. LOOK AT WHAT I'VE MISSED !!! TT^TT nuffnang_bid =

Blog Challenge - Day 5

2011-06-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

DAY FIVE - 11 SIGNS I'M NOT INTO SOMEONE Ahhhh.. This is just the exact opposite of yesterday's post. Think think think think.. 1. I filter my words when I talk to him. Our conversation will be pretty much normal, like normal friends. Unless I dislike this person a lot, I will look out for my words and prevent myself from hurting people's feelings. It's kinda like a simple way of showing

Blog Challenge - Day 4

2011-06-02T15:36:00.003+08:00

DAY FOUR - 12 SIGNS I'M INTO SOMEONE I was enjoying myself, chatting with dear super happily last night that I almost forgot about Day Four. XD I remembered it around 12am, then I thought as long as I complete it within today it'll be fine. Mum's worker is back to work so I'm staying at home today. Today's topic is like a reminder of the times I was having a crush on dear. XP 1. Erm, I always

Blog Challenge - Day 3

2011-06-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

DAY THREE - 13 WAYS I BREAK THE ICE 1. If the situation happens to be like I have people sitting beside me, I will first nod and smile. That curve on your lips is an international language. Remember that. And SMILES ARE FREE. =D 2. Usually I will pluck up the courage to say HI. The first step is always the hardest. Once you've opened your mouth, I guess the rest will come naturally. =) 3. Being

Pain

2011-05-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 7.30am today. Mum's worker is sick again so I followed her to the stall. I could barely open my eyes this morning. Due to the flu I got yesterday, my nose was blocked with mucus and I had to breathe through my mouth. And imagine me walking to the toilet like a zombie with her mouth open. XD I kinda enjoyed working with mum and dad at the stall today. But seeing them in pain hurts me

Blog Challenge - Day 2

2011-05-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

After two weeks' hard work, I have finally earned my first 1.75 million in Cityville hahahaha! Of course I have already earned more than that ever since I played this game, it's just that I need these much to buy a parkside villa. It's not that important, just mentioning it here for fun. XP I'm still in the mood to continue the blog challenge! Hope it stays. XP DAY TWO - 14 NOT SO BASIC FACTS

心痛

2011-05-30T18:52:00.000+08:00

"哇..隔壁两兄妹又再喊个不停.."“看隔壁邻居他们酱..很爽..""啊？""没烦恼的.." 听了很心痛.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Blog Challenge - Day 1

2011-05-30T01:41:00.000+08:00

WAHHHHHH. It's not even twelve midnight and I'm beginning to yawn already? No no no no this can't be hahaha. I've finally finished watching 《洪武三十二》 and I'm pleased with the Hong Kong drama series. I enjoyed myself throughout the episodes. ;) I'm now watching a Korean drama called 'Secret Garden'. I heard compliments from friends about this series and whenever I mentioned the name a few of them

Shortbread Fingers

2011-05-29T17:35:00.000+08:00

Our neighbour, Mrs Fun gives us a packet of shortbread fingers when her pilot son comes back from work sometimes. They taste like butter breadstick fingers, but not that sweet. Although we keep them in the refrigerator, they're still that crispy. =D I really really ADORE this! But mum says it can't get bought from anywhere in Malaysia. :( nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

My First Blog Challenge

2011-05-29T16:17:00.001+08:00

I've been hesitating for quite a while, whether to start taking the blog challenges or not. The reason I haven't started for so long is because I know it requires commitment to a certain extend and I know I neglect my blog sometimes. (SORRYYYY!) I spent an hour searching for blog challenges. Actually I was just giving myself excuses. XD I was still considering throughout the search. XD XD

Contented ♥

2011-05-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

I felt love from my family, and him.. I feel contented. ♥ nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Forgotten Fairytales

2011-05-18T01:47:00.000+08:00

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Rambling Rant

2011-05-17T10:58:00.000+08:00

Another boring boring day.. And pathetically I have to save it up for my revision as I'm sitting for my first paper for the semester on Thursday. I don't know what to say anymore.. I came here just to find someone to talk to.. More like a way to let out.. Blogging is something very contradicting, for me. I write as though I have a friend who listens who reads, though I'm not sure who are they..

RAWRRRRRR

2011-05-16T21:02:00.001+08:00

Finally I finished watching the korean drama series, 成均馆绯闻. I like the storyline very much. =) Too bad I'm not in a good mood to blog about this series.. I'm currently following a Hong Kong drama series, 女拳.. Not bad, and I'm currently at the fourth episode. =) These two days seem very long.. My progress is still slow.. I've washed my clothes. They're "up-to-date". == I've also finished doing

AHHHHHH -sigh-

2011-05-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

I intended to let myself relax. And hence I put the whole drama to full screen. I thought I'd be able to enjoy it, or at least get my mind off the bore. Suddenly I realize, that I haven't been alone for quite a long while. Erm, more like I have nobody to talk to for hours.. For the past few hours I kept pushing myself to find something to do.. And yea I did. But now what I have to do left is to

TOO BORED

2011-05-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

Ah.. At least I've finished printing my portfolio stuff and I have only a few left to arrange.. I didn't have a good nap.. I slept with a very uneasy heartbeat rate.. I was awoken by the super duper great thunder RIGHT OUTSIDE my room window.. And then I just couldn't get back to sleep with that goddamn renovation knocks right beside my house.. I don't feel like playing games because something

Haih

2011-05-11T11:57:00.000+08:00

虽然是不小心的.. 但现在被你说了还真的觉得很.. >< nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Breaking Down

2011-05-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

I finally broke down in the washroom.. And the worst thing is, it's no way near enough..

A Break Alone

2011-04-05T23:13:00.000+08:00

Although I hate being alone.. Sometimes there's just no one that can really accompany me at the exact moment when I needed them.. Even my parents have their own problems and they didn't have to patience to listen to me tonight.. I'd rather stay quiet although I really hate this feeling.. Sorry for being emo.. I just need to find a way to distress for a moment.. nuffnang_bid = "

5 Ways Love Makes You Smarter

2011-03-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

I FOUND A VERY INTERESTING LINK! =D 5 WAYS LOVE MAKES YOU SMARTER:Firstly, marry someone similar to you, if a bit smarter. Well apparently that's one of the ways. XP A Seattle Longitudinal Study looked at 169 couples in 7-year intervals between 1956 and 1984 and found that the most stable relationships were those in which people were similar in intelligence, flexibility of attitudes, social

Our Canon in D

2011-03-20T02:26:00.000+08:00

AARON ANGELLO - OUR CANON IN D I wrote a song for youI don't know if you'll listen toBut if you doI don't think youWill understand the poetry Don't think I'll let you goSo easily, girl you don't knowThe depths to whichI understandJust how much you were meant for me I had a dream last nightThat we somehow had made it rightAnd everythingWas new and greenAnd we could dance eternally But then the

BLOODY TEARY

2011-03-17T02:06:00.005+08:00

I'M SICK I'M STRESSED YET I'M DOING MY BEST TO GET THINGS DONE ONE BY ONE I'M TRYING MY BEST TO ARRANGE MY SCHEDULE THE BEST WAY ALSO TO GET THE TIME FOR YOU-KNOW-WHAT I GET THIS KIND OF DEPRESSING AND DISCOURAGING REPLY SUDDENLY WISH I FAINTED IN THE FIRST PLACE. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Pumped, Kinda

2011-03-16T13:20:00.000+08:00

I didn't blog last night as I was pushing myself to finish the first part for Math 1's assignment last night. And I managed to finish that part last night! =D Really sick of numeration systems now.. Orz. So.. Regarding the bike payment, dad paid it off and we got back the keys. Everything is back to normal, just that there are a few more months' left to settle. I believe we'll be fine. :) Well

To Be Positive

2011-03-15T13:23:00.000+08:00

I finally got myself into the assignment mode last night.. I got an idea on how to arrange the info by combining whatever I surfed from the internet. Though a little bit tired while waiting for dear to get online, I enjoyed the waiting hours as we chatted. And lastly the goodnight call I've been waiting. :) I woke up early this morning, to receive a joy-killing news from dad. It seems like my

A True Hero

2011-03-14T15:30:00.001+08:00

Audrey gave me a link today. It's a blog link and the short entry clutched my heart. It was saddening and I'm touched, by a true hero. Click here to read the story. The earthquakes and tsunami in Japan have caused a great number of deaths and misfortune. Although the degree is milder when compared to the one we had many years back, the damage at Sendai is beyond terrible. Maybe it is because

Ironic

2011-03-14T02:11:00.000+08:00

And I just told myself to be strong, here comes my first disappointment. Life. Ironic. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Smiles Needed

2011-03-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

I seem to face the same problem whenever I'm right in the middle of the assignment period.. I'm pushing myself to not do last minute work so I'm beginning to start my research on my first assignment for the holidays.. I'm stuck and I get panicky very fast whenever it happens. So yea I'm stuck. == Dear said it's very easy but I don't know why I feel so confused looking at all the different

Babai BIG, Missing Dear

2011-03-13T16:41:00.000+08:00

BIG tortured me mentally and my energy was drained till the last drop when it ended.. There were times when I felt lost and didn't know what to do, where to go.. It was terrible.. I missed home and the house in Ipoh those times.. I couldn't get online.. I couldn't find a quiet corner to be alone.. I couldn't get anyone to actually talk to.. I have no one to text to.. I couldn't get back to the

Whatever Title

2011-03-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

So yea I'm leaving the house for BIG tomorrow morning.. I've just finished packing and I hope I've packed everything I need.. Kinda worried that I'll miss out anything. >< Everything closed into me these few days and I began to feel the pressure.. I almost vomited after printing out my assignments this evening.. I feel very pressured.. And somehow I thin;k something is going on.. I wonder how is

信任

2011-03-06T14:55:00.000+08:00

刚刚又发现了一件事让今天显得更灰..就是这种心情..这种失望..让我不少次想放弃相信..难道我真的做错了什么要面对这种事情..受到这种对待.. 信任我给得起。但在你把它还给我的那一刻以后，除非我觉得值得，否则我是不会再把它掏出来了。 nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

泪了

2011-03-06T14:23:00.000+08:00

真的很闷..很想家..昨天忙了整天赶完了很多事很开心..但今天又闷到很辛苦..一个人在房间很容易乱想..我好想念有人在身边陪着的感觉..我好想回家..明天又要去露营..如果大姨妈来的话就真的是有去等于没去了..我明明是想好要习惯一个人的..现在又这样辛苦我也不知道我在想什么..这几天闷着真的很不甘..我好想让自己的脑袋放一天的假..什么都不要去想..我真的很累..突然觉得这个房间大得很空虚.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

不爽

2011-03-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

也许是刚好今天心情不好也许是等着大姨妈的来到也许是我真的是那么衰到～～～总之我现在很不爽 nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

VULGAR, SO WHAT

2011-02-24T21:37:00.001+08:00

This is my place of letting out so I have my rights to spam and swear anyhow I like here and I know there are millions of people who swear even worse than me on their blogs so THERE. FUCK. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Bored

2011-02-14T14:10:00.000+08:00

Almost all the girls have gone out for karaoke a while ago.. Only cherry and I are left in this house.. It's Valentine's Day today so they're going out to celebrate Best Friends' Anniversary instead. XP The house is really quiet today.. And I'm only going out at night so I'm having the whole hot afternoon free to myself.. There are assignments but I'm tired to even think about them.. Sigh..

Being Neutral

2011-02-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

Another day gone. I've left home and I'm now back in Ipoh. We celebrated shaohui's birthday at shinlin's place tonight. Well, sort of. =) Nothing much to update about today actually.. Everything is still the same.. Only I enjoyed the short hours with mum and yongyong today. =) Dad misses me I know.. He even called up when I was on the way to the bus station.. I miss them already.. My first

Chilling Down..

2011-02-13T01:12:00.000+08:00

Finally managed to chill down by a few percent.. I really miss the warmth.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

What's Wrong..

2011-02-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

I felt better during the afternoon.. But I don't know what happened and now I feel so wrong.. It's like my mistake has scarred everything and now.. I feel as if the pipe is gonna blow anytime.. I'm trying to think a way out of this but I don't know why the more I struggle the more I fear and the more I don't know what's going on.. What's going on now.. nuffnang_bid = "

唉

2011-02-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

今天的心情转折特别多就好像搭云霄飞车一样上上下下心情起伏很大的一天 nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

空白

2011-02-12T14:04:00.001+08:00

在我哭着醒来的那一刻在我醒来觉得快要窒息的时候在我睁开眼睛却一点也不愿意醒来的那时候我知道我还是在乎的明明是一开始就说好的.. 我只需要时间一切都会过去的 nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Eff Me

2011-02-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

I always make things worse..Why can't I just stop causing trouble and misery to people I care..Why can't I just do something right.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

The Pain..

2011-02-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

I woke up late today. Terribly late. My alarm didn't ring and cherry had to wake me up and luckily I was in time get myself ready in 5 minutes before we leave the house.. Last night I couldn't sleep well again.. Woke up many times in the middle of the night.. One thing I'm glad about is that I didn't have new insect bites. =) I was clever enough to apply medicated oil to my body before I went to

Rants

2011-02-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

Another disappointment.. Although I understand everything, there is still A TEENY WEENY BIT of disappointment left.. Sigh. Next time I should just rant here. Facebok is a place of sharing. Ranting here will be better I think.. Coz it's my writing spot and I have all the rights to crap here in anyway I like. All the rants, manja, complaints.. Sigh.. I should have known not everyone can stand me

CNY(?)

2011-02-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

Surprisingly our house has the CNY mood this year. =) We have so many red-cover containers filled with festive cookies. Mum enjoyed decorating our porch wall, and we enjoyed packing souveneirs for mum's customers. =) Although there were sometimes when I really got bored and I had nothing to do.. >< Angpao's are as few as usual, but there's nothing much to be sad about coz it's always been like

Loosening the Grip

2011-02-02T02:49:00.000+08:00

I haven't blogged for so long and I'm back to torture your eyes with my rants.. I'm repeating my mistakes again.. I'm falling into the same hole again.. After so many unhappiness, I wait every now and then for the miraculous pain reliever.. But who knows, sometimes I can't even get near it.. There's always this internal conflict within the hearts of all females I believe. When we're born with

伤心

2011-02-02T02:04:00.000+08:00

希望破灭.. 伤心.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

不算数的打赌

2011-01-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

老天爷～～～你玩臭～～～我明明打赌赌赢了的～～～哪里知道不算数>< 算了啦好过完全没有机会要知足要珍惜因为今天是一个意义重大的日子九字意义更重大哦 nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Panicky

2011-01-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

I feel so panicky.. How..

Should've Gone Home

2011-01-22T12:47:00.000+08:00

I should have gone home.. I'd rather spend that RM50.. I should have gone home.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

A Calm Morning

2011-01-20T14:12:00.000+08:00

I woke up late today. ^^ Woke up and rolled around on the bed with my beloved pillow. ^^ After brushing my teeth I watch a few episodes of Nabari no Ou, sipping coffee, hugging the pillow. ^^ I wanted to blog the minute I woke up but something seems to be wrong with blogger these few days. Sometimes the webpage is not available when I want to blog and I had to wait. Today seems to be a very quiet

FINALLYYYYY ♥

2011-01-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY WITHOUT ANY UNHAPPINESS AT ALL IN IPOH EVERSINCE DEGREE STARTED. ♥ nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Hoping to Maintain..

2011-01-19T13:35:00.000+08:00

So.. For the moment everything seems to be fine today.. I was afraid that I'd feel unhappy again over whatever so I tried to think of something - for example doll up myself? But I didn't actually do that too lah.. Sometimes I find that putting more effort in dressing up myself can light up my day a little. It's like you know, some self confidence boosting? >< Today's the first time I wore my new

Negativity

2011-01-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

I finally really understand why some of my classmates who live far away from Ipoh miss home so much.. After the two suffering weeks here, I finally spent a fabulously cozy weekend at home. Happy moments always fly fast, and I'm already back in Ipoh so soon.. I'm just so contradicting.. In penang I miss him so much.. In Ipoh I hate myself many times for making things look so bad.. Maybe it's

Overwhelming Fear

2011-01-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

Fear groped my heart even harder than before.. Why must it follow me all the time.. As if it has no other places to head to.. Today's just another day overwhelmed with insecurity.. I wandered around the admin block aimlessly.. I held on through lectures nervously today.. Lectures suddenly ended earlier today.. I had the whole evening free and I felt so wtf.. Planned to have badminton so at least

Miserable Me

2011-01-10T18:04:00.000+08:00

So I guess feeling terrible last night was kind of like a sign to the unhappiness I felt today..? Never did I dislike being alone here at all.. I'm beginning to feel very unfamiliar with this place, with this place, with this campus, with Ipoh.. I'm beginning to dislike being here.. Eventhough there are some friends who I can talk to are here.. Eventhough he is here.. Eventhough I'm just a worm

Unorganized

2011-01-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

OH YEAH BABEY I REACHED MY TARGET. I FINISHED MY WORK.I MANAGED TO NOT DELAY THEM TILL THE NEXT WEEK YESHHH. Now clearing out the rubbish from my files and refilling my fullscape papers.. Sigh, tomorrow's lectures are just... boring? T^T Falsafah Pendidikan is just like another history subject.. Perkembangan Kanak-kanak is.. okay lah. >< Tamadun Islam is... WALAO THE ONE THAT I DIDN'T EXPECT TO

Random Screams

2011-01-09T16:56:00.000+08:00

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO COMPARE THE TWO EDUCTION SYSTEMS FOR HOURSSSS AND I ALMOST DOZED OFF OMGGGG. Okay continue. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

OH YEAHHHH

2011-01-09T13:32:00.002+08:00

It's sunny !!! And cold. XD This is just my favourite weather. I like it to be bright and dry, and at the same time cooling. ^^ I rolled around on my bed again this morning before I folded my blanket and went to brush my teeth. I love waking up in the morning without worrying about anything. Although there ARE things to worry about, I just try my best to think on the bright side. I emo sometimes,

I'M STILL SLEEPY

2011-01-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

I don't know whether it's the cold weather or what but sheesh, I've been feeling sleepy for the whole day. (@_@) I tried to work on my presentation but I almost dozed off for so many times. I've already finished another few episodes of Nabari no Ou and I'm still sleepy. I've managed to pull myself together to start off the presentation but I'm still sleepy. I had a two-hour nap but I still feel

Blocking Sites Suck

2011-01-08T14:16:00.000+08:00

It's getting colder and colder in Ipoh. I shivered like dunno what when I had my bathe last night. Imagine your knees shaking terribly when you stand underneath the shower. Sooyin and I even slept under the fan speed 2 last night. I always sleep well when it's cool though. =) Maybe I'm used to waking up early already, so I automatically woke up around 8am this morning. I was shocked but reluctant

10 Hours OUT

2011-01-08T00:10:00.000+08:00

Went out for 11 hours today with Chia and Wendy. It's been quite a while since I went out with my friends for so many hours. XP Although I'm very very tired after that, I think it's a pretty nice day. =) We shopped (though I didn't buy anything XD) and chatted. We even went for four and a half hours of karaoke OMG. We tried to keep the spending lower due to my financial problems. However I guess

Relieved

2011-01-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

Had my first Pengurusan Gerko for today. DEWAN KELEDANG AT PULAKO WITH AIRCON IS JUST SO NICE. It's not very cold, but I like it when I don't sweat so much during classes. I can't really concentrate when I feel dizzy with the heat. >< Next, Falsafah Pendidikan. I received my first tutorial presentation of this subject. Planned to surf for materials when I'm back from my date but I'm too tired..

We Fall and We Learn

2011-01-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

Finally my first day in class. Math in BM is suffering.. I feel like a person who has mental and communication problems.. And our math lecturers don't have BM math notes ready yet, so for one of the lecturers, I struggled like crazy. Imagine reading from English powerpoint slides, you have to jot down notes in BM. And for god's sake I didn't even know that radius = jejari, circumference = lilitan

I'm Fine

2011-01-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

The dried up tears tell me that I'm fine.. I hope tomorrow's class has tonnes of homework for me. To bury myself in work and stop thinking about life. I wanna be a robot sometimes.. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

The Internal Conflict

2011-01-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

I'm still trying to persuade myself.. Giving reasons.. But can anyone tell me.. Why do I still feel so sad.. So disappointed.. I don't feel hysterically sad anymore.. The tears are cold.. and numb. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Heartbroken

2011-01-04T21:32:00.003+08:00

I can't believe my eyes.. My heart aches.. I'm still alone in this empty room eventhough I have the internet and my handphones.. I thought at least I can have someone to talk to.. I don't know what to say anymore.. I'm heartbroken. nuffnang_bid = "ca1e7f4e592b8d0347d73012fddfead5";

Day 1 of Degree

2011-01-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

I suffered from insomnia last night! When my alarm rang at 6.30pm this morning I was like WHO THE HELL IS CALLING ME AT A TIME LIKE THIS. Looked at my phone, oh it's my alarm.. Wait, WHAT ALARM?!So yea, I didn't know that it's already in the morning. @@ Reluctantly I woke up, went to brush my teeth, had breakfast. Today's the first time I brought along a big umbrella to class. It's not exactly